lalala.. sorta miss the band lah.. keep going back to their practises.. 3 times le.. shifting to the new house next week.. yepz.. supposed to have more privacy and space there.. yea. i think it wil be.. went there to see the development today.. quite satisfied with most the things.. and i realised my room is BIG... but dunno whether got place for a drum set.. think i'm gonna set my mind on buying it..

gathering yesterday.. didn't realli work out.. lucky shaun came.. wondered what would happen if he wasn't there.. everybody would just be sitting there doing nothing.. luckily we still played some games.. performance sucked real bad.. but wad the heck.. wad would u expect from amateurs tryin to put up a last minute performance...

just received a call from yj tellin me to pay $13 and stuff on friday.. yepz.. startin sch le.. hope will b able to play soccer like in secondary 2.. EVERYDAY.. fraid i won't be able to catch up witht he otehr schs if i make it to a better one after march..

it's already the 31st of january ritez.. so here's my new year resolutions .. for now : buy drum set , be a better person , find a better person , play soccer , go for music refresher course!

this year's a bad year. some parts especially. so hope the next brings me good and fresh starts in a new environment both in sch and at home.. haha.

just came back from ktv with parents and relatives.. not much x'mas mood though.. it's supposed to be x'mas eve.. oops.. no. it's already x'mas... haha. 2am le. didn't noe.. anyway.. sang xin ru dao ge.. improved. relatives said i should sing jacky's song.. suits my baritone voice.. haha.. 'baritone'.. later my father fetched bro to friends x;mas countdown. i was in the back of the car.. wishing i had that special someone to spend my x'mas with.. haha.. oh yah.. just now wen to cause way point.. bought presents for favian , mindice and brother.. spent more than $55.. still haven't buy zhihao's puzzle! not enuf money! haha. sibei tired le.. gtg.. bb. MERRY X'MAS!!

just came back from some x'mas concert thing at my brother's church... yahz.. it is a SUN concert.. Ho yeow sun's... free concert.. so i just went lorz.. today first day..first show.. didn't expect it to be so crowded.. think more thatn 5000 ppl.. so no choice.. we late comers had to watch upstairs in the 'overload room'.. yah.. there was just this big screen.. my cousin darren was sayin this is the first time he has been in a concert which has everything except the concert! haha.. the room was dark.. and everybody was singing and wavnig thier light sticks to Sun's music.. well.. to the screen that is.. we left after the show to get free ice cream the church was giving out for that nite.. then i went to geylang... to eat tau huay..

the journey past one of the alleys.. saw alot of girls standing along the street.. dyed hair.. smoking.. think they are hookers.. yepz.. disgusts me..

Played soccer yesterday morning.. those bowen guyz didn't turn upwith 11 as we thought.. instead they turned up with 5.. so we had to wait from 11 to 11.45.. for the other teams to finish one half.. then we started.. they only had 9.. omg.. so we had to 'lend' them one player.. so it was 9 on 10.. we had 9. then later benny and chris joined us.. so it became 11 on 10.. wth.. after the first half of 30 MINUTES.. they stopped the game.. we already leading 6-0.. then dunno why.. those small boys dun wanna continue le.. haha..

knn.. i just got tricked.. wasted so much of my sms and time.. and flexing of face muscles to frown and think... i hate this kinda sms thingy.. bleahz.. going to get ready for soccer le

haha.. didn't manage to pull myself out of bed to go meet them.. too bad.. furthermore kok isn't goin , so i scared i'll be super bored.. anywayz.. he made aosccer match 4 us tml.. dunno whether will ask wx to go or not.. i got my primary sch friend to cover left mid for us.. hope he performs.. it'll be the first time i play centre mid.. a little worried though.. lack of experience.. wth. it's just a game..

felt like i just wasted the day away.. i did 3 basic things , eat , sleep and watch tv. until now. sienz. seems like tml's match will not be so complete.. lots aint playin.. think the first team line up will be:
( chris , favian , john , weihong , me , rodney , shaun , johny , yewtuck , shaun's friend , keeper)
i dunno.. alvin and chiu cannot make it.. we are hoping benny can stand in.. but i guess his back is giving him problems.. somemore he says he has to go to aj.. bloody hell.how like that..

will have to see how... gtg discuss more le.. bb

they just left my house a few mintues ago.. i finally could take a bath and go to sleep.. which i'll do right after this..

bout 20 ppl turned up last nite. but i think i didn't take care of the so called 'guest' enuf.. but too bad lahz.. i did my best le.. one moment i'm going up to take the bike.. the next i'm at the other house takin margarine and tongs. then a moment later i have to run to the billiard room to sign stuff.. then some one will call me to go up stairs again to collect some things.. then some one will complain that there are not enough of somethings.. and i have to go up and get it again.. arhz.. anw.. it's prob the last time rite.. so nvm lahz..

gd luck to all of u.. jc postings will be tml... hope u get into the jc of ur choice.. i have to.. if not i die. haha. 1st choce yj lehz.

and to Sylvia, Happy Birthday.. see u guyz later..

gtg. tired.

peace out.

i've been neglecting this site manz.. so guilty.. haha. yesterday was the long awaited 13th dec.. the 4e2 bbq.. only few ppl turned up. omg.. it's like a private bbq.. so few.. i thought it was whole 4e2.. lucky didn't bring ball .. no one will play.. cycled alot lorz.. uncle cheat our money.. other she tell 4 hrs $10.. we all he say 3 hrs $10.. wah liaoz..nvm lah.. blue moon.

i loved the sea breeze... especially sitting there with everybody.. just chatting.. not a care in the world. and shouting out to sea.. relief stress.. johny wants to go there again.. i dun mind.. why not we camp there one night or cycle over nite or something.. but i wanna sit on that rock again.. it gives me a sense of freedom.. but it lacks one thing.. i think i know wad it is. haha.. it'll be perfect if there was that 'thing' there...

haha.drew a some stuff on the sand.. . oh yah. i lost my nike water bottle.. haiz. 2nd time le. eve had to go back by 10.30pm.. if not mother will scold..haha.. so we had to leave by 9.30.. initally they wanted to leave at 8.30++.. then they said 9.15.. they were quite upset when we got to the bus stop at 9.35pm on my watch. means 9.25 in real time.. aiyoz.. the bus hadn't even come yet. anyway.. i saw eve abit upset so called her mum.. tell her she'll be back late lorz. haiz.. then the rest i lazy to talk about lahz.. haha.. anw.all 4 guyz , johny ,wee wee, cs and me sent the 2 gers back home. saw the rest of the ppl that stayed at the park till late at yishun interchange after that.. haha.. i thought they wanted to watch movie.. dotz.. anw.. i gtg le. it's late. soccer tml.

peace out.

palyed soccer again today..so sienz.. raining when we started to play.. i had gastric pains.. went to mindice hse to shit.. came down after takin my medicine.. wanted to go home.. then waited half hour.. medincine took effect.. played soccer till dunno when.. coz ok le mahz..yah.. den after that went to macs with vian.. ate Mc pepper.. then go home.. slack until now.. play gb.. play msn.. nothin much.. tml they coming play pool.. hmm someone last tiem ask me to invite her to play if got play.. i 4got who le.. haha.. think i shud ask her to come if playin.. hmm.. can't remember..

so long nvr blog le..

played soccer today.. so lame.. 2v2... the rest eitehr dun wanna go or cannot make it lorz.. haiz.. just go there kick a few balls.. found a challenger to play soccer with us.. most prob next wed.. yah..sorta lookin fwd to the bbq on sat.. supposed to bk a bbq on mon for the e4ians too.. dunno .. will confirm with the rest tml or soething.. not sure yet.. hmm.. yah.. the best part of today was the night soccer.. enjoyed it quite ok... john tan hot arhz.. play like he wants to play soccer!! never seen him so hot bout it b4.. haha.. oh yah. b4 that when to watch movie.. MATRIX revo rocks.. we went in thinking it was another lousy production like reloaded.. haha.. we were wrong.. it was little like reloaded.. it was much more exciting.. much more colourful and the special effects are the BEST!! haha.. lucky didn't watch brotehr bear.. hehe.. trinity died in the end.. i dunno wad happened to neo.. probably got back to zion and remain blind forever lorz.. quite sad lahz.. john said he look like demon hunter with the red bandage on..haha.. quite cool.. the way he blow stuff up with his hands only.. its like.. woah.

yah..den played soccer at the place near chris house.. the open area.. there were social dance classes on.. and abit of martial arts boys practising at the corner.. yah.. so we played soccer.. free for all..dribling.. thenlater passing.. then passing with movement... felt like training session.. haha..then asked john to practice his crosses.. quite nice.. needs more practice.. ya.. think shaun and vian veri hot about the match.. so ami.. but a few ppl that we wanted to ask to play can't make it.. so.. gotta ask outsiders lor.. my friends.. kok friends.. wadeva la.. yah.. okok.. i've finally reached a stone hammer in gunbound.. haha.. gtg.. cya.

i didn't even step out of the house today.. feel veri lethargic.. no choic.. need to force a recovery fast.. got bbq on sunday and a bday party to go to on sat.. tml somemore wanna play soccer.. kok and alvin got mayon match.. hell.. nvm.. hope favian manage to get another few ppl.. if not 7 ppl play veri sienz arhz.. arhz.. hope tml will be fun..2 weeks nvm touch soccer ball liaoz.. holiday lehz.. can u believe it.. if i dun play soccer soon .. where will i vernt all my frustrations on?? haiz.. listening to jay chou.. recalling the past.. past times in school.. why didn't i treasure them enuf.. now it's over.. and we'll be in another school soon.. so sad.. gonna miss e4ians definitely.. but will miss our the soccer ppl most.. zhihao , kok , vian , alvin , xiong ( owes me my watch and nike shirt ) , tlg , huat , tuck ( yeah wth ) , johny , xiangyong , cx ( wtf.. ) , zhiwei , and i'm sory if i left anyone out.. yah.. gonna miss playing soccer with u all lorz.. i'll miss the 4e2 2e4ians also.. gonna miss talking bout girls with johny and singing ahem ahem songs.. and calling xiangyong from the back and see him walk over haha.. then there is the wistling to call yuwu.. and the all so familiar glare of jie en when we keep askin her for staplers.. haha.. and ofcoz the stealing of the snacks we always get from myriam and jie en and adrienne and yuwu.. haha.. gonna miss that.. yah gonna miss singing with hl too.. and making insulting remarks with chiuhao about various ppl.. haha.. all these.. i will definitely miss.. and then there is also the copying of homework day in day out.. and living in fear of mrs heng's bio lesson.. and ofcoz the funny and amusing stories of morais.. oops.. i mean MR morais.. haha.. still remembered one time i slept in mrs heng class. and it took like 3 calls from her to wake me up.. no wait. it was johny that woke me up.. and when i got up.. everyone was looking back at ome.. un4gettable ar..

didn't do much today.. got up and wanted to play soccer le. still sick though. but i really want. msged vian to confirm playing. then shaun they all say they cannot tahan liao.. didn't sleep mah they.. so ok lorz.
yah went to my music teacher's house to learn bout com music..veri veri interesting. gonna get my dad to buy a portable keyboard for me. when i finished i msged ppl coz i didn't noe where to go. johny asked me to watch movie. then on the way back to yihsun he said he watching le. haha. nvm la. he's got a good reason anyway. yah then came back lorz.. benny got his bike home. finally. and his bag too. i still haven't heard of weixiong. and my $137 watch is still with him. scared he angry then go pawn it or something. i've been having nightmares abouthim. haha.yah. wonder wadz the score between singapore and malaysia. no wait. i don't want to know unless singapore wins.. yah. watched tv. ate. coughed alot. now ok le. thinkin lorz.. go msn le. chat..

quite happy today.. everything sorta went rather ok. better than i expected. i was quite reluctant to leave the house to WATCH them play bball.. haha.. ofcoz la. but the day was good. there was a suggestion to go and watch the body exhibition at EXPO.. the one with the dead ppl.. haha.. onli dice , me and eve wanted to go.. haha.z. so ok lorz. ended up at the zhihao's house.. didn't do much there.. this is when u realise is not where u go. it's the company that is important. not bad. didn't know this group of ppl could gel. cool.. oh yah.. bought a damn nice cd.. Bon Jovi : this left feels right.. nice cd title too.. hehe. it's the acoustic version of some of their songs.. veri cool. veri nice. brings out the groove in you. haha. next is to buy red hot chilli peppers.. yeah.. hen watch 5 movies.. wishing stairs , ju-on (final) , return of the kings ( lotr 3) , brother bear and looney tunes.. maybe if i can love actually as well.. haha.. the trackers went for chalet today.. won't see them till thursday..then play soccer. still abit sick.. tml first com music lesson..

that sorta celaers thigns up a little. at least on the birhgt side it looks like a hands-off warning. haha. er...

well.. turns out that she came back online.. haha,, she told me she answered him le.. now 'm awaiting the answer. she said yes.

haiz... dman depressing arhz.. i waited the whole nite on msn just to be able to talk to her on msn.. then she went to watch tv she said.. when she came back she said she gtg.. wad the hell.. haiz.. wadz the use. she won't even come to visit this place will she?

dun pretty much of thinking today..was sick today so spent whole day at home.. sleeping , slacking and thinkin alot.. but i still can't get it straight.. why do i have to feel this way? i hate htis bloody feeling.. feeling on confusion and unsurity.. unsuirty.. is that even a word? arh.. who cares. u got my point.. dman ads keep popping up on my screen.. dman irritaitn.

it's now almost 1am.. i waited since 10 to chat with her.. luckily for me.. there are others online.. haiz.. i dunnow hy but i have this feeling.. this hope that she doesn't agree to him.. i duno why even..i think i still feel something.. i hate this.. everytime i see her or talk to her or just walk next to her i feel this small flame being rekindled.. maybe it was never even put out..

sista remindered me of the thing i said i would do o HER on grad nite.. if u'all wanna noe wand that is.. go read my previous blogs.. haha.. haiz..

i hope she'll win in the end. like they said.heehee.

Graduation was last ntie.. had too much to eat and too much loud music pumped into my head.... perspiration and cold air dun mix.. got sick.. guyz wanted to chill out somewhere or just just walk and walk and walk after that.. so we did just that.. i was bloody sick.. veri xin ku.. nbut i still continued.. haha.. but apparently at around 12 mid night some ppl wanted to go home liaoz.. haiz.. nvm...

yesterday was quite memoriable rite.. i mean.hehe. everyone can see some old flames rekindled and stuff haha.. i shalt not mention any names.. haiz.. ok.. yesterday was the first time i saw ppl wearing so nice outfits.. woah.. iliyas's was the best man.. beige leather coat and pants with a black turtle neck.. pro..the girls eh.. i thought most them looked nice.. yah.. the girls were like so elboratedly dressed up for the nite.. haha.. not like some teachers who were like.. so casually dressed.. but nvm la.. like we care. at least no one wore the same shirt clr as me. benny , chiu hao and yewtuck wore exactly the same colours.. haha.. lucky.. didn't go to those common shops like g2000 and u2 to buy...

well.. the food sucked.. not up to standard la.. everything was rrather tasteless.. yah.. orh maybe bcoz i was already kinda sick b4 that..

the lindy hop dance thing was ok ok la.. i mean for thsoe that participated it was kinda er.. ok la. quite fun. but for htose sitted they were thought to tdo stupid hand actions.. haha. most of them think is kinda lame.. can't blame them right.. i mean... seriously. those were stupid hand actions. most of them were just sitting there chattin.. tkain photos.. hmm.. maybe its not so bad after all..

i didn't get to take enuf photos... was too busy i guess. oh yah. won second prize in the lucky draw.. haha.. my 007 number actually was kinda lucky.. hehe.. not bad.. a canon scanner worth $149 haha... iliyas wanted to buy it for $50.. nahz.. dun think i'm gonna sell it. i've been needin a scanner for veri long liaoz..

think the best part of the night was the dancing part.. it could have been more fun if ALL the e4ians had joined in.. oh well.. it's not the first day we know them. anw we had fun.. we actually brought the crowd in the mood together with MR row and gang mann.. first it was the train.. we started out with 5 ppl.. chris leading, then shaun , me, xiong and benny.. then the train continued.. woah.. it was like damn long. power siahz.. haiz.. hl and eve didn't participate in anything.. neither did favian and johny and zhihao and blah blah blah.. hope they had fun watchin.. hehe.. maybe they didn't wana get their clothes wet..

after that had a lot of photo takin.. was drenched in my own sweat mann.. who cares.. natural is nicer.. took with the ppl i wanted to take with.. the e4ians especially.. it was cool... i never knew 2e4 was so big.. woah.. it's like alot of us man.. it was cool..

hah.. oh yah.. Mdm SHaron tan got kinda shocked to see my hair like that.. hehe.. in fact i was kinda shocked to see myself as well..anyway now it's back to normal..

yah.. we spent the nite ,or morning romaing the streets for something to do.. the guyz la. and hl , eve and mj.. the rest went home...... xiong got lost on the way.. i thought he was following us.. i dunnno wad he was doing sleeping on the bridge opposite fullerton.. i woke him up.. i mean.. i called his name. he got up.. then i dunno liaoz.. didn't manage to get him le.. nahz guess he went home.. or somethin..

i dunno.. it feels pretty weird.. it's like i'm missing somethin in my life now.. i dunno.. like something is not complete.. i dun feel that i've done wad i shud have done.. hmm... dunno..

so many things to say.. but my fingers are gettin tired from all this typing.. it's 12.41 in the after noon now.. maybe i'll come back later to cont blogging about last nite.. in the mean time, i'll go gunbouding.. haha.. that cheers me up a little... now thinkin whether to watch wishing stairs with kok they all later.. cya peeps.. peace out

i realised ppl can change if left to face with boredom for several hours.. haha..

bought so much stuff these few days.. actually not much.. but feel like it's a lot.. yesterday went to queens way and pondered a long time whether or not to buy the boots..it was $79. i onli sold my predator for $40.. but salam sold it to me for $55.. thought it was rather reasonable.. then today i went back again.. reaslised i needed a pair of casual wear shoes and slippers as well.. and i got them lorz.. went to suntec at first to check out the price.. wanted to buy there initially.. luckily i went to salam.. got a discount from $113 to $75.. not bad.. haha.. going to spend money tml again before the soccer thingy.. buy grad nite shirt.. haha. ya.. noone's online..cya

o's finally over..
breathed a sigh of relief after the paper today.. THE LAST ONE.. bwahaha.. but after that it didn't realli feel veri ' last day' it felt veri ..erm.. shitty. brought ball.. soccer shoe.. initial plan was to go hockey court.. play soccer.. some didn't want to. some wanted to play bball.. haiz.. if wanna play bball tell me on monday lahz.. den i dun bring ball mahz.. haiz.. nvm la..

eventually also went there to play soccer.. sucked though.. place was too big and i kept missing chances.. den tried practicing finishing.. i realli suck.. wad a 'boost' to my confidence for the game tml.. erzz.. hope got enuf ppl to play la.. if not i call 2 of friends come join us le.. so far only got shaun, vian , chris , xiong, chiu ,me .. benny and kevin.. dunno whether they can play.. haiz.. played too much today i think..

supposed to feel happy today.. why isit i feel so damn down... must be the soccer-bball issue.. tmd la.. like that dunno whether saturday they playin or not.. at least i noe xy will be playing.. tan too.. benny also trying to force recovery.. if really cannot get enuf ppl get my 2 friends la.. one offensive wan.. one defensive.. they quite pro wan.. haha..

life seems so meaningless.. nothing to look forward to nowadays.. we realli should get a chalet or somesort la.. or its equivalent.. heck.. yea..just received a msg from her.. haha.. she'll never noe how much that means to me man.. hee..

anybody going to buy clothes for grad nite? i also need to buy.. will galdly accompany u.. (depends la)

a little short on cash lately.. need to buy so many things.. boots , jersey, grad nite clothes, mindice bday present ( my share costs $20 ) , favian's bday present and a treat for jn.. think will ask my parents soon..

well.. cya..

yea.. it's the end of another week.. woah.. long time never see this place. didn't surf net for long time too.. yea.. all 3 sciecnes finished now only left 2 papers!! yea geography and a maths p2..

gotta learn to watch my temper and the stuff i say.. i tend to over do things recently.. frustrated with myself prob.. yea. must be the exams.. THE EXAMS.. seems like 4 yrs of work going down the drain after each paper.. yea..every paper i take brings me one step away from target of 12 points.. haha my hope's a dream.. think will prob go to poly le.. yea. i mean i noe my father doesn't want me to.. but when the results are out wad can anybody do? haha..

they gonna buy jersey and stuffs.. hey.. isn't the jersey thing supposed to be a class thingy and not a soccer thingy.. heck.. wad d hell.. anyway some ppl also not buying.. kaoz so many things to buy.. still need to give favian and mindice birthday present.. think won't get too ex le.. no choice. hehe.. wait for x'mas lor. :p think i've gotta give someone a treat for lending me her tys during this Os.. yea.. should get her something maybe.. oh well.. chem today was ok i guess.. p2 la. p1 i totally crapped up.. physics i think die le... i mean i couldn't even remember i had to use f=ma for the 1st question!! die la.. hell.. bio was ok too.. hope can get at least a B for all science.. gotta bang on my a maths and maths le..

yea..choosing jersey numbers .. i chose 22.. dunno why.. so far the taken ones are:
1-alvin
5-kok
6-xiong
7-tan
9-chris
10-vian
11-huat
14-TLG
15-kevin
16-zhiwei
17-xiangyong
22-ME
25-zhihao
34-benny

sorry if i left anyone out.. i can't remember realli.. haha..so many single digits left..

gtg le.. a maths tuition tml 9am. gonna study with ppl at woodlands lib after that.. must get a1 for geography! haha.. my hope's a dream!

-Dis angel made my life a bitch!

yea! this week is over! bwahaha.. 4 yrs of maths and chinese finally over! bwahaha! ss and english also over... now must prepare for 5 more subs.. bio , chem , physics, a maths and geography.. after that is freedom! bwahaha.. haha.. 4 yrs of my life just going in a flash.. feels a bit weird.. think i'll feel saddened definitely after this yr.. i mean. if we go our seperate ways.. ya. definitely will miss all of ya..especially the guyz..

anywayz.. played soccer after the chinese o's today.. so lame. didn't even study yesterday.. and i went to sit for it.. paper 1 over at 10.. went to eat den take ball at vian house.. reached sch 12. still got time to study. haha. went thru my book.. glance thru la.. then went out of the library awhile to join tuck , zhen hao and eve.. haha.. the 3 of them.. scaring each other.. test chiense words.. i didn't noe most of them. anyway i think they studied so hard for nothing much.. i didn't even study and iknew how to do most of the han zi and zao ju..haha.. guess 6 yrs of tuition didn't go to waste.. yah.. gotta pia sciences and a maths liao.. need all the help i can get!

haiz.. lost my soccer..haha. realli.. no skill le. dis few days play super off form.. den will get a little tempremental when i dun perform to my expectations..haiz.. who cares. must be the exams.

seems that i'm always waiting for her.. dunno why. when i come on msn i wish she comes online. when i check my hp i wish her name appears in my inbox.. when i study i wish she would be there to support me.. i get a little bit worried when i see her wif someone else..i dunno.. dunno whether it's just another illusion of my curiousity.. or wad.. maybe i should try to get to noe her better..

next week alot of ppl birthday.. no choice. u'all gotta accept wad we give.. no money la.. still must save to buy shirt for grad nite. and a pair of shoes. and a bag. and a laptop. haha.. that's after my exams la..

still yet to design my room.. i dun wanna ove into the new place with nothing in my room.. haha.. looking for inspiration.. prob will get it after o's anyway i dun have the heart to do anything except worry and study and think about stuff.. not that kinda stuff.. nice stuff..

soccer match.. 7 a side? maybe.. jersey? some may not buy.. boots.. some may not have. why don't we wear pe attire? just a suggestion.. i dun mind doing the above but the rest? i dunno..

quite tired.. blisters on my leg.. gtg le.. she reply liaoz.

u noe wad? U suck man.. i just can't stand u..realli.. u suck. when speaking o u on the phone i try.. i realli try not to be rude to u or anything.. trying to talk to u like a normal fren.. but i just can't do it.. u are a bloody ass hole.. suepr kiasu.. super hypocratic and u are super matrialistic.. i just can't stand u. you are 2 diff ppl infront of teachers and other ppl.. u're so FAKE... u FREAK. haiz.. no point insulting u so much anyway.. no point.. u won't even come online to look at our blogs anymorez.. when was the last time u even touched urs? irritating piece of shit.. i dunno why there is this grudge.. but i just can't lift that grudge.
in short. YOU DISGUST ME.
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it's been a long time since i last updated this man.. anyway it's the o's u peeps won't coem see unless ur dman free rite.. so wad the heck. u'll prob read this a few days after i've finished it.. haha.

anyway.. was the emaths paper today.. supposed to be easy.. i found it relatively ok.. but shit.. careless mistakes and stupid errors.. made me loose 8 marks le.. die.. if can't get 85 and above then sure a2 or less le.. confirm moderate de mah.. hell..

anywayz the dman ss is tml afternoon with english.. haiz.. ss is after eng at 2pm.. so think i've still got some time to sort thigns out alittle.. i haven't touch english.. heck.. it's a language.. not something u can study overnight.. ok.. mayeb i could get some inspiration of somesort from some reading materials.. shit.. i've not been reading books since like when.. sec 2 ? damn.. later just gonna glance at the format of the letter writing thingy..

studying all themes for ss except growth and venice.. so that leaves theme 1 ,2 ,3 and 5.. finished 2 and 3 le.. read thru 5 le.. going to memorise later.. have to read thru the rest of the book to.. just in case.. hehe..

to the e4ian boys: not confirm.. but there shud be a soccer match 2 weeks after we finish o levels.. so it's prob on the 1st or second weekend of december.. venue should be the field near my house.. u noe? follow bus 854 route.. versus my cousin's church friends. they're bout 25-25 yrs of age.. be prepared..11-a-side i think.

to everyone: good luck for ur o levels! forget about tkj's lame talk about doing and trying ur best.. it's almost the same thing at the olevels... coz u can't guarantee u are DOING ur best can u? u onli can TRY to..haha..

pardon the typo's i've gotta run..

gonna play soccer for 3 weeks after o's..

this is one of the worst analysis i found.. haha.

Virgo Boy

He is always very particular about his appearance and is a fussy dresser. He is not a big spender, and is careful with his money. He takes a logical approach to every aspect of his life. He expresses himself in a straightforward manner. He often lacks tact and his criticism is not always endearing. With his analytical mind, he is often engaged in activities like chess and advanced mathematics that stimulate his mind. This leaves him little time to participate in physical activities and sports. He is usually a top performer in school and has all the ingredients for a successful career, possibly as a businessman or a doctor. He should watch out for anxiety or depression, which are common amongst Virgo boys.

Virgo - o type

August 23 - September 22

for Men
Personality: You take an active part in life and are sometimes referred to as the "renaissance" man. Your tender looks are deceiving because you become a roaring lion when can't tolerate something. Words you don't even mean come right out. Try to take the rational approach, if you don't want to regret anything.

Love Tendency: Being the practical joker, you enjoy the popularity among women. You like to share your opinion about everything, even in the most frivolous things. One problem you will come across is that you will be known as the heartbreaker in your younger years. This might occur but you become a one woman' s man once you get married.

Life: Your sharp decision-making shows your steadfastness and helps you in the future. You will stick out in a group due to your leadership quality, which will be great in corporate situations. Happiness will be in your life in abundance, so look forward to it.

Good Match: Your high expectations will be met with B-type Taurus, Capricorn, and Pisces, and O-type and B-type Cancers. You'll be able to share your dreams and goals together. A-type and O-type Taurus and A-type and B-type Scorpios

Bad Match: AB-type Gemini look as if they are the romantic person who will pamper you but that is very deceiving. They will drain you mentally and you will have a hard time following their wishes. Another mismatch will be AB-type Sagittarius who will hurt you.

ok.. my phlog can work le..
spend the day sleepin.. now veri awake and alert.. going to study thru the night again.. and watch half time of the man u - fulham match haha..

yesterday did quite alot of things.. but dind't accomplish each task.. went for tuition in afternoon , lfet 2 chapters of a maths to finish revising..then met up with vian , vin , chiu. came my house to 'study'.. ended up watching talking cock and talking cock.. haha. ltr did manage to study a bit of bio.. bout 3 chapters.. then played daidee.. had to di 52 push ups with head dunked in water.. still owe 2..

now having stomach aches. gtg. bye

didn't go to school for a whole week liao except for tuesday bip pract.. so today went to sch welcomed by the new toilet-like-tiled hall.. it lacks colour and creativity.. the design sucks.. high ceiling.. hmm. come la.. next year come back play soccer there..

went for earli recess.. like bout half an hour.. it's like the sch dun care bout us le lor.. shiok. we CAN do wadeva we want lor. i mean we were not studyin but loiterin round the sch.. haha.. yah. went to collect ticket from the new councillors during recess.. the few of us were the first to take the tix.. nice. chiu got 001. i think i got the nicest number.. bwahaha.. 007. she asked me whether i wanted.. haha..hehe..

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY
went off half an hour b4 sch ended to take photos.. shiok.. 2e4-ian boys.. initial plan was to take during recess at e3.. taht didn't work. than shaun wanted to take during the lesson after recess.. e5 ppl didn't want to come out... so all went back to class.
photo shoot was a masterpiece. running towards cam.. nice. then fauzi. then the stairs. cool. we left out a few ppl. rong yao and joei. was john lim there? i'm not sure.. didn't notice. too many of us. haha.

later played soccer with e4-ians guyz.. too bad.. couldn't play properly.. everytime i ran a little stood or stood on one foot to shoot or pass or challenge a ball i feel the pain of my blisters.. damn.. so couldn't play properly the whole time.. control was like shit. came back home with 2 more extra 'extensions' of the already big blisters, and also to find out it burst. so that's why it was hurtin so badly.. raw flesh exposed.. the abrasion..

eve took the ball home.. actually wanted to stay back in sch to study.. but ended up wastin time playin.. no correction watchin them play soccer.. i didn't shoot a few.. but the pain was realli...errgh..

so went outta sch by 5.30.. bought a drink at OUR 7-11.. the onli store we go to almost everyday without fail excluding weekends.. they shoud probably give us a membership card or something.. for us 2e4 ppl.. haha.. lame.

had a nice chat.. over msn.. hmm.. wonderin.. just wonderin..

so wad if there's onli a month left for us to see each other.. we still can meet up if we realli wanna.. yea vian u gotta point there.. u'all cried like dunno wad on the last day of sec2 bcoz u were gettin seperated.. come on la.. look at us now. those that WERE meant to be seperated were seperated.. those that still clung on to each other.. well their still clinging.. hehe..wadeva. it's late i can't phrase my words properly.

just hope all of us won't cry or something on grad nite.. or wadeva u ppl take as the last day to see each other.. make it a happy occasion this time.. not all memories have to be sad ones rite?...

wad u'all wearin on grad nite?

missed sch today. first time in life. stayed at home and actually studied. did 1 compo. one a maths ppr. studied the hwole physics thingy. started on bio. started on tourism. i can never do this much things in the whole 6 hrs in sch. SChool SUx.

wondering whether i should go tml. will see.

feel like missing school like the others on friday or something.. i mean it's much more productive studying at home den in school lorz.. anyway i want to eat bk breakfast on friday morning.. and probably study there too.. realli dun feel like going.. here ii am.. 9.42pm on a tuesday night.. i sorta wasted the day again.. but i did do a few physics questions.. and i am reading alittle bit of bio once in a while.. haiz.. besides that i played a bit of soccer and watched tv..catched whose line.. drew carey show.. and ranma.. even watched abit of lydia's lame show.. wathed till 9 +.. den i thought hey.. i have a little bit of inspiration to write.. i wanted to start on the narative essay.. but decided this was much more comforting.. hehe.. i've a outta control procrastinater..

haiz.. i need clarification.. it's blocking up my thoughts, my moods.. nvm.. dun wanna talk about it.onli YOU noe about it.. YOu should noe who YOU are..

u noe.. besides a few acceptions.. i've always tried to blend in as well as possible.. and i've never delibrately tried to make anyone angry or anything.. i dunno why some ppl just dun see that.. and in midst of their own argument with other ppl.. i do sometimes make neutral remarks.. neitehr supporting either side.. but i get barked at.. it's like fucked up lor.. i really hope this person sees it sooner or later.. that sometimes he is rather ... and ... and .. those of u who read this.. dun go thinking it's u i'm insulting and all.. coz it SHOULD not be you.. anyway it's a free world.. i can say anything i wanna in this blog of MINE.. u dun like it dun read it.. i'm just stating wad i realli feel..

shouldn't this wad a blog should be like? sorta like a big confession place to throw ur doubts and unhappiness away.. most of the time infact.. after i blogged everything.. i usually just forget about it and forgive everybody who actually did wadeva thing they did.. so i should actually thank this blog.. it has probably been the most 'friend' to me.. it erased my troubles..

i realli hope i can find someone to talk to.. someone to ease the pain and confusion when something happens.. ok so i have my sisters.. but one of them just ends up scolding me for something which i had done previously.. that realli craps me up.. wad d hell..

was just reading back on today's blog.. and realised everything sounds nonsensical to me.. wad d heck.. i dun care.. just wanna type.. brothers gonna ask to use com.. i gtg.. will blog later.

ohyah willbe shifting house soon ater dec 22nd this year.. but just shift to the block next to us.. higher level.. bigger place.. finally can design my own room..

feeling high and low alot lately.. somethin's botherin me.. something has survived..

ok.. i was out on MC last thurs n fri.. so i had a long break from thursday and thru the weekend.. 4 days of slacking.. and still am.. doc said i was way too stressed... asked me to take a break.. after today i'll start studying like siao le.. i need to get 4 points less off my L1R5 to achieve my own goal.. dun wanan aim too high rite..

anyway for those of you peeps who still dun noe.. my L1R5 changed to a 16 after the addition of my physics..haha.. didn't expect to get a b3 for physics.. thought i was gonna get a just pass or somethign..thought i was kinda goin to do better for my chem.. well i DID do better.. i improved from a f9 to a d7.. but crap subject.. i still failed.. the worst thing is.. i dun get to see where i was wrong in my physics and chemistry!!!!! apparently.. the change in classroom was so 'sudden' on friday.. they couldn't hep me take my exam paper ... WHIcH THEY LEFT UNDER THE TABLE.. wen tback to school on monday onli to realsie nobody took my paper back for me.. went back to the old calss today to search for my paper.. onli found the stupid geography.. didn't find my chem n physics! HOW am i supposed to noe where i got wrong in my chem and physics! think it's thrown away bcoz of the n levels exam things.. DAMN.. i hate his life.. think i will need to borrow someone's paper and redo the bloody thing.. then check to see where i got wrong.. which concepts are wrong.. got 26 days left to save myself.. with regard to prelim result i only can enter nanyang jc.. actually i have no intention to stay there permmenantly.. i wanna enter ajc.. or if not i go poly.. these first 3 months is to try -try only. see whether j-life suits me..

today played soccer.. not bad..think they played quite well.. i dunno wad happened to the other side.. abit unbalanced actually... our team got shaun , favian and alvin.. but they got johny , xiangyong and john tan.. chris didn't play today.. think he went off wif his ahem to safra or something.. i heard.. dunno.. no right to noe.. my whole team scored accept for me.. was doing alot more runs then usual today.. experimented with dribbles. n tried shots on goal.. was quite happy with my offensive performance.. i think i sucked at hte beginning of the game..actually hope will get to play like today tml for pe.. but too bad we dun have the luxury of time tml.. will most prob be playing in ah tong field bcoz the sch will not alow us to make noise in our field.. too near yishun pr.. they having PSLE..

an update on my bro's party.. THANKS TO ALL THAT CAME.. u'all made the event less boring.. it's weird.. to me it seems lifeless and boring.. but to my bro it seems he is enjoying every moment of it.. i lost my bike reflector.. dad was quite pissed about that.. was even nagging me about it this morning in the car.. i think irealli need to buy one sooner or at least ask them to chip in to the cost.. anyway.. {rekindled} over the days.. maybe it's becoz of stress? not sure..

learned how to play part of more than words , and better man over the week on the guitar.. finished qing tian.. can play quite ok le.. supposed to teach shaun how to..
and huiling oso.. had a nice chat with renes on msn yesterday.. updates on 'gossip' haha.. i yesterday too boliao le.felt like comin on line for a chat... no one seems present.. should be studying.. hope to realli start tml..after sch will not play soccer.. will go straight home to bia bio and a maths.. hope to score all a1s for maths , amaths, and bio.. will TRY for a distinction in english and chinese.. gotta update myself on current affairs.. cannot loose out in humanities.. at least get a b3.. like that can get my L1R5 of 2+2+1+1+1+3.. = 10. DREAm. success are made of dreams.. hmm.. been dreaming lately.. of things and results and her..

i dunno wadz wrong wif me.. i seem to be pissed and irritated by ahem all the time.. every thing he does agitates me.. just feel like whackin him up.. feels like i've got a lesson o teach him.. dunno why.. just holds a damn big grudge against him.

the new system in sch is not bad.. but bio still sucks.

soccer at ah tong tml.. my phone is rather quiet today.. no rockets.. msn is quiet too.. just came to blog.. still got lots to say.. lots to regurgitate.. haiz.. think i will ask at grad nite.

for those of u who are interested to know my results for prelim.. u've come to the right place.. i won't say it's the best score though..... it's the WORST. sorta.

got back my chinese paper 1 yesterday..was praying that my compo would get a 33.. i got it. was so darn happy.. letter got 15/20.. that's a record for me.. overall i made a 72 percent pass! that's an A2! for the first time.. bwahaha.. (some more win someone by 1 point.. bwahaha).. but i cannot be contented.. doesn't mean that if i don't study i will get an A2.. anw, i HAVE always had chinese tuition frequently.. many times a week.

let me start with the bad news..
i got a b3 for english..

the worse news..
i got a c6 for geography.. and a b4 for ss.. that's a c5 for humanities.. shit.. shit geography.. should have taken lit. maybe got higher chance of scoring a 3 or 4..
ss got a 20/25 lehz for source base..too bad the structured part got onli an 11...

the worst news..
i failed the whole biology exam.. but i managed to scrape thru by half mark to make it to the c6 catergory.. lucky for my practical. i mean.. wad johny said was true..

WHO COULD FAIL BIO MCQ?????

now the good news..besides the a2 for chinese.
got an a1 for a maths!
and if the score is being rounded off.. i get an a2 for e maths.. that's a big improvement from the b4 i got in midyr..

if i count my L1R5:
eng- 3
maths- 2/3
a maths -1
chinese- 2
human-5
bio-6

total: 19 or 20 points ( depending on maths)

so i'll onli manage to JUST make it to yj for the first 3 months..haha.. now waiting for my 2 other science results.. chem and physics.. i failed them both previously.. hope i can get a pass this time.. realli hope..

haiz.. to the REST of ya who haven't got ur results..

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST! will be waiting for my chem marks tml.. and see wad had gone wrong in my tourism in geography that casued the 27/50..

soccer during PE sucked today.. ground was 'manured' and wet.. got my shoesand socks damned dirty.. and we lost somemore.. zhihao slipped becasue of the sooty slippery surface at one muddy end of the field.. then i never handball.. chris handballed.. he accused me..not chris.. dun be mistaken. yewtuck clipped the ball to his own hand.. he shout ball to hand. come on la. sportsmanship man, 4 years le still like that. u'all winning somemore. haiz..nvm la.

still dunno wad to get for my bro 21st birthday.. an electric guitar? wonder where can i get a 2nd hand cheap nice one.. with amplifiers ofcoz.. or should i just MAKE him somethin.. nah. i'll buy.. but wad? someone pls help. he will onli be 21 once.. but then again so will everyone be their age once. haha.. but 21st bday signifies somethin big.. freedom.. someone help me.. i left 2 days.

it's been 6 days since i made a blog.. soon after i got my onli surviving ball left from ahpoh's house.. they HAVE to go and kick it straight into the drain.. and it was raining.. haha.. oh well.. wad the heck..

supposed to go and play pool tml..chris came up with this idea for us to form a pool clan.. and tml is for choosing the leader..haha.. go there for the game.. love of the game.. seems i've been playing alot of pool lately.. soccer too. but since my achin' sprain on the left ankle is killing me for the time-being.. i might as well retreat to the comfort of the indoor pool table..

played like f*** this afternoon after school.. soccer rulz.. although my leg hurrts like crap still .. sometimes that is.. still played 4 matches.. my team played 5 matchs.. won 4 lost 1.. i didn't play in the 1.. haha.. ahem ahem.

got an A2 for chinese prelim paper 2.. so far the best chinese result in my life. scored alot better then some others.. everyone didn't study. i salute favian. 32.

these few days planning the chalet.. shaun they all..
seems like they agreed already to share the place with the girls.. guess shaun and some of them were already outnumbered by the others.. yt seems to want to take charge of the chalet. hope most of the class will be able to pay and go.. SENTOSA.. 4 days 3 nights.. hope it will be successful..

i'm composing a rap.. with the bacjground of graduation and chorus melody of black eyed peas where is the love?.. i need a band to play the tune for me.. i need a rapper.. hope can perform or somethin.. it's my first rap outta inspiration..

but i haven't finished it yet.

need help too. guess i should start on steering back to my top prioities in studies first .. been slacking alot after wednesday ..

oh well.. gtg.. so much to say..so little time.. so much to do.. so much to think..

life's short. enjoy it. and it isn't that much of a straw..

apologies to everyone.. i have not updated my blog in like 2000 years.. ok many more like 20 days.. but wad the heck.. it's still long..

our beloved school's Operations manager sucks.

now i'm left with no more soccer balls in my house to kick..

am in the midst of lousy prelims. i think it's wrong to have just prelims.. the sch should have common test at least.. to prepare us for the prelims and then prepare us for o's.. my prelims sucks.. think i'm not getting into jc for the first 3 months of 2004... haiz.. nvm.. if that happens i'll busy myself with music , soccer and work.. maybe a few courses..

actually my o level plan for L1R5 is 12 points.. taht's why i have to try to make it below 20 points for prelims.. at least can get into yj for first few months..
already got chinese results and is a 3 so by retakin git i probably will get a 3 again of if i''m lucky a 2.. think i'm suing it for L1R5.. that leaves engl, humanitites, scinece , maths and another one.
so the xtra sub i'll use a maths.. been getting 1s for that.. eng aiming for 3.. humaities also.. scinece hope i can get at least a 3 if lucky 2 la. like that can get 13 points. so die le. scinece and humanities must get 2.. die. die..

wish me luck.

i think u do have a chance.. maybe i will take it... maybe i would..

i'm still going crazy.

today's my birthday.. dunno wadz got into me.. feeling realli blue lately.. i dunno.. just have no mood to socialise much anymore.. except maybe sometimes i feel a urge to play soccer or go cycling lor.. seems that i like going to the library to study. but with kevin , chris and benny preferably.. coz they are quiet when they should be and fun when they should be.. so its kinda better.. proabably the reason why i'm feelin so blue is becoz of these exams comings.. prelims in another 2 weeks practical for physics and chem is just next week.. bio was easy so i hope the 2 will be like that too.. oh well. actually i think there is another reason for me feeling glum.. lately alot of ppl have been saying stuff about me n mindice.. which is actually pretty irritating bcoz it gives ppl a great misunderstanding.. can't stand it..

anyway.. the school celebrated teacher's day yesterday which was a total disaster.. i mean.. it realli sucked lor.. it was the worst celebration i've seen so far in my 4 years in this pathetic school. probably bcoz its the first time the new sc are doing stuff..

oh yah. and the band realli realli sucked.. haiz.. i dun want to say it. but .. my good.. they realli sucked.. intonation was okok.. but was disrupted by some of the sec 1s sound.. so that was the first problem.. secondly is their volume.. it's like.. they are onli playing to themselves.. not projecting.. haiz..and the student conductor.. haiz.. another problem.. hope mr toh will realise that there are other potentials in the band rather the wn.. haiz.. he quite stiff and not spontaneous enuf leh..i mean.. he is standing infront of the band.. yet he never ask them to play louder.. and the stupid thing is they never test their volume at the courtyard before playing.. they should go there and test test first mahz..haiz.. dun care le.. by saying all these.. ch say i becoming like jing guang they all wanna interfier with the new batch.. but i mean.. i feel that i have something not done mahz.. nvm lorz.. just hope they call us when they need us lor.. kelvin seems veri arrogant. hope he changes soon.. if not band major will change to someone else le..oh yah.. xyz asked me wad has gotten into me.. coz i seem to be always trying to insult and humour him infront of others.. haha.. i dunno whhy also.. i just got this grudge inside me against him.. it's been in me for quite sometime already.. i dunno why.. just can't stand him anymore.. in this 4 years i've seen him. i realised he is a super kiasu.. super hypocratic.. and super psycho bitch.. haha.. wad d hell..

anyway it's my bday today.. waiting for favian and kevin to come and swim.. hope they come soon.. coz i wanna go get a phone.. new phone.. probably siemens m55 or some nokia cheap model.. my parents keep on stressing that they dun have enuf money le and blah blah blah.. which i tink is absolute nonsense as my father recently this year have made so much upgrading to the household..like the new big screen or rather no screen tv projector thingy.. with new surround sounds system and all.. somemore he sold the old bike.. not veri old.. for $200 and bought this new bike for $500++.. further more.. he got my brother a new phone! which he used forhimself and gave his old wan to him.. let's see... wad else.. oh yah.. he went to australia for a week just recently with my mum.. and bought like 6 kg of nougats home and another 4 litres worth of red wine in this big aluminium foil plastic bag and stuff.. and i was like woah lor.. it's like he onli gets wad he wants.. nothing for the rest.. but can't balme him la.. he has worked damned hard to even manage something like this.. almost the full 5c's le.. i mean.. he deserves a reward to himself every now and den rite.. just wished that my parents dun squabble every now and den about mediocre things..

anyway.. seems like everything is ok with cl le.. so quite ok.. oh yah.. realised that md is realli spoilt .. and veri veri playful.. she says she has present for me. when i said that she dun have to give today.. she sent back.. ' but i want to give today!'.. or something like that la.. anyway i'll just thank her.. although i hope that the present dun take up too muhc space.. or i'll just have to give it away to someone else..

oh well.. gtg le.. thanks everyone for giving me thier blessings.. realli grateful at least u made me a little more cheerful.. oh yah and to liangying and mindice's father.

happy birthday too!

no mood to talk.. no mood to write.. no mood to do any thing..

hope they dun disgrace our face tml... haiz..

i hate restrictions of others on me.. i rather restrict myself...

dat's all today.. those who wants to watch ju-on the prequel plz tag my board..

day didn't suck till 7.55pm..

31 july

.. few weeks left to prelims.. start studying from now.. no soccer till prelims

sylvia not bad.. can play horn quite well.. got potential.. but still lots of room for improvement.. percussion as gone down down down down without sinniah and juliet.. gotta built up le.. clarinets seems ok.. except i think i should make some arrangements.. it feels like iffah is playing solo all the time.. dunno la.. i can't be bothered with cl dere.. tml going to wani's bday party after soccer.. dunno how to go.. dunno how.. nvm.. i think i go with fadila after heats lorz..

band posts.. heard he wants ahem 2 b treasurer.. objection! ap ap ap.

can't wait for inter class soccer.. i just hope i won't be the person who destroys everything.. hope i got form on that day..dun want to disappoint anyone..

a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p.everthing.a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p. a.p.

7 days since i last blogged.. sienz. tml got chemistry practical test.. on QA.. scared. haben memorised a thing.. dun care just go there and do wad i noe..

went back to band today.. supposed to just go back with chiu hao onli.. in the end dunno why alot of the sec4s went back... cool.. haha.. all out play yewtuck. so weird.. seems like everyone went back except for the band major.. haha.
sylvia went to french horn le.. quite pleased to see that she has the same interest as me.. not bad.. like brother like sister..
ya.. let's see the differences..

me: sec 1--> trumpet section---> 1st trumpet-->wanted to go french horn section-->2nd and 3rd trumpet---> tp5 den 6 den 7--->syf 2001 played duet with fadilah---> bach---> clarinet---> supposed to go first--> thought 2nd was better-->syf 2003...

sylvia: sec 1 --> trumpet section---> 2nd and 3rd trumpet---> tp6 or 7( not sure ) --> got my bach--> syf 2003-->french horn--> first horn...

not bad.. somemore at least now got someone to take over my conducting burden.. hahahahaha.. actually i hope there will be A FEW conductors.. so the ONE conductor will not have so much stress.. at least have a few assistant conductor mahz..
acutally i've already been conducting this band since sec 2 le.. haha.. where got ppl do this type of thing for 3 years one.. haha.. no choice.. our band major can conduct 'very well'.. oh yah. i dun understand why. this person keeps talking about jn.. say she veri cute la.. veri nice la. veri dun la.. oh yah.. still got say sv cute also.. veri good.. somemore call her meimei..then say happy she go french horn section.. say say say.. oh yah.. stil got rbc.. kaoz.. dunno whether he loyal to lx or not also la.. cannot blame also.. seems like they onli sister to sister relationship..haha..i badz.

so the match's on thursday.. gotta win.. gotta show that we are not wad morais think we are.. and give the those that noe us some face also.. haha.. but this thursday they announcing the new committee lehz.. dunno.. no choice.. hope he announce after combine.. then we can join in.. i dun realli care about the party.. just food. i wanna play soccer.. and see who's gonna take over us.. actually i realli hope jna or sv or fad or atfah or ym gets a post.. want them to get wad they deserve.. wad d hell.. i actually dun even mind letting cl get something.. can't believe i did that.. but aiyah. i dunno.. went back today also didn't realli talk to my section.. was talking to trumpets.. trombones.. euphoniums..horns n percussion.. most of the time.. dunno wadz happening..

actually when we step down i want the steppees to sing a song that i'll re write.. for them.. for the band.. at least show some stuff la.. haha.. i already thought of part of it.. hope they'll like it..

i have been having non-rest nights these few days.. keep waking up.. sometimes dream to much.. so much until when i get up in the morning like no sleep like that.. den sometimes like got headache.. aiyahz.. it's been a long time since i've had a nice DREAM.. a quick kit-kat off reality... i think i need it especially now.. maybe it'll do my mind good.. coz it seems i'm realli starting to worry about my results le.. ppl pls if u can.. pls push me further.. not too far though. i still want my soccer.. haiz.. shouldn't realli on others.. reminds me of benny.. must in independent.. self motivation..haha.. come on i CAN DO IT! L1R5 12 points.. at least i will have a choice of destination rite? yea. thought it straight.. acutally i was thinking of continuing my music.. be a instructor next time after NS.. hmm stable economy n i have the interest.. haha.. well. it's an idea..

u noe wad.. i think i realli totally gotten over her already.. haha.. maybe feel abit dumb la.. coz other ppl can get just SMACK! like that.. i think so long still like crap.. aiyah my fault la.. think so much.. think until BYEBYE. but i realli think i get over le.. seriously.. oh well.. will continue stories next time i come to blog again.. cya peeps..

wish us luck on thursday. we need it.

hope my cousin get's well soon.. bridget too..

ciao

i can't believe it!!!!! it's a silver.

this is so far the best achievement of entire life until now..

sorta.

woahz.. the atmosphere was quite nice.. after 4 years finally.. a solid medal.. haha.. somemore only second time taking part in this for the school.. for me is the second time la.. for some is the first and only time..
we were so worried we would get COP.. especially ch la.. he keep saying we might get COP.. sh also.. but ok la.. not bad.. intonation problems solved some wad in vch.. only our rhythm killed us all..

silver lehz.. haha.. i think i'm sorta gonna miss going for band.. the place where i can excel in the most in school.. compared to the others.. i think it sort of gives me a sense of accomplishment.. haiz.. and i still can't believe its silver.. i dun wana step down so fast.. i wanna relax in the band now.. let them give us respect and pass on the work to the sec 3s.. haha. but i have one last thing to do before leaving.. my log book.. i wanna chagne it to CD.. at least more high tech and more reliable.. easier for the younger generations too.. guess the ppl i'm gonna miss most is those that i sorta 'made frenz' with this year.. my section especially.. and my ex-section.. the two fav sections of mine.. clarinet and trumpet.. the clarinets gave me a lot of stress.. some of them got no confidence in them selves to play.. make me veri agitated.. but guess now then i'm sorta stepping down soon.. i'm not that stressed le.. i just hope that cl would go back to her original self and talk to me soon.. ya.. hope to come back to see welcoming faces.. and i want the band to remember me for a long time..

juliet is probably the most respected and eldest of our batch this year.. yah..

thinking of treating my section to pizza.. but think they won't appreciate much too.. so i dunno la.. den somemore i'll be the onli guy.. veri awkward.. maybe get the whole band la.. then the sec 4s and 5s treat.. cool rite.. dunno..

want to get them something.. dunno wad to get.. oh well.. see how it goes.
i have 5 new vandoren reeds size 3 at home.. can someone buy form me? haha.. oh well. thanks everyone for ur great support and well wishes.. see u'all soon.. think i wanna get mc tml.. and thursday.. dunno see got e maths or not first.. haha..

ciao

haiz.. dry throat.. prob coz never drink water for so long le.. accompany nigel to np to look for jiayin's present.. the guy is so damned filthy rich.. willing to spend $300 for a gift.. kaoz.. i wouldn't even spend that kind of money on myself all at once..

having band practice everyday except for friday.. supposed to go watch some show with my parents on tt day.. gave the excuse i needed to have tuition.. but guess i could push it earlier.. finish sch at 12 nn anw.. nah.. want to play soccer first... already sacrificed my mons , weds for xtra band sectionals.. can't skip soccer on friday..

if those ppl dun wanna play soccer on friday.. or not play properly.. i think i'm gonna be damned pissed.. dunno.. see how.. but tt's wad i think..

scolded gh , yk , jt, im , cm n fdz yesterday about keeping discipline during band hours.. even when mr toh is not around.. told them le.. but today even when toh is around.. they still dun listen.. see la get scolded le.. happy la..
my clarnts also.. tell them to take note of articulation and not be so rough le... juz dun listen.. i dunno why when i tell them they cannot comply.. but when mr toh tells them then listen.. haiz..realli wish we can drop a few members that sucks just b4 the syf.. drop a few save the rest gd rite? those ppl ar.. so long le.. still cannot run notes, neither can they play in tune.. they dun put in enuf effort.. can't stand it.. ask them to play.. give me that stupid long face... veri irritated.. especially with yz.. zt still puts in effort.. but not enuf.. rad too little air le.. shk haiz.. anyhow play wanz..

too bad.. french horn cannot drop players.. too few too late.. haiz.. if can think out of the 5 3 will be out le.. xh think will go to 4th horn.. dunno la.. I DUN WANNA GET C.O.P... again.. i've worked hard at this for 4 YEARS!!!! can u ppl not be so selfish!!!!!!!!!!

haiz..

atifah gave a card.. quite nice... ya.. mr toh had to say the thing out during band.. i dun mind.. but she minds.. dunno la.. all ch fault.. gtg le..

cya next time.. prob just b4 or after my syf.. too bz these days to blog...

just finished 2 tuitions in a row.. no time to eat dinner.. gobbled some stuff down my throat just before the chinese tuition.. now eating those food taht i didn't eat just now.. one piece of boiled chicken.. heck..
mother officially fully retrenched today.. she talk until almost wanna cry le.. haha.. happy and sad day for her lor.. 30 yrs in work.. at the same place.. not bad la.. k le.. gtg liao.. tml still got music exchange..

ok.. shit.. i can't handle my time properly! ARGH! can't sleep well at night either.. wad am i gonna do! it seems like i've got alot of things to complete! got so much a maths homework which i didn't do.. school and tuition.. must complete by this friday.. still got e maths prelim exam 2002 to do.. luckily today i no need to stay back do coz com lab got pro.. haiz.. suppose to do tonite.. i think i do tml.. since i'm going to help CO in the syf ting .. i'll miss maths anyway.. i'll also miss bio n chem.. bwahahah.. it's just one day..

so tired after the performance last night.. i think we should derserve a one day break.. mr toh says this is bad attitude.. butwad the heck... i did GET up.. i DID go to sch.. so should be quite ok just to THINK of not going to sch rite.. haha.
haiz.. got alotof rashes on my neck..

that day play soccer with them.. kicked xy's leg.. fell down.. leg now got bruise at the knee there.. a 'hole'.. curing le..

i think we played rather ok at the concert.. quite majestic the first few bars..
ofcoz after that got problem la...

haha..

figured i got 9 outta 10 rite for my chinese listening compre.. that's a good start isn't it..

oh yah.. tried out the hockey court for socceer near vian's place..
quitw near la..

scored 4 goals.. happy.. lousy goals.. who cares.. it's goals.. maybe just one nice one.. the one i ram in one.. haha.. favian.. i realli think u shouldn't play so much.. ur injury.. go see a doc la.. if not next time cannot play worse..
not asking u to stop totally.. just for a while.. or dun run so much.. play keeper lor.. haha.. that''ll be nice..

it's just 2 weeks more to SYF! yea! after that can step down le!yea! but i'll miss them la.. seriously.. i'll miss those close or rather close ones la.. and the not so clsoe but frenly ones also la.. heck.. i think i'll even miss the lousy juniors as well.. u'all must remember to have band camp next year.. no competition next yr.. and remember to call us seniors back!! form ALUMNI ! haha..

to the CO ppl tml..

benny , denise, zhihao , chris , jiahui , qian hui, minjie, huiling, evelyn ... etc etc.. the list goes on..

good luck lorz.. just do ur best.. u'll get wad u deserve.. dun worry.. if u've worked hard.. than u'll get results..

i'm sitll wondering why they need 6 people to help carry a few instruments..haha.. nevermind.. it's their day..should help them..

gonna miss heritage tour this saturday! got music exchange at woodgroove...

oh well.. that summarizes it..
the rest to lazy to type.. chat in my zonk board if u like.. buaiz..

it's getting hard to find time to update this blog.. it's also getting harder to find time to play a decent game of proper soccer... got thrased by those sec2 guyz after vian went off yesterday.. scored a goal.. and another own goal...crap.
scored the own goal the same way chiu hao did.. haha.. same place.. bought a tub of ice cream. couldn't finish. duh.
ate vege bolognaise and oragina. before rushing home for tuition. went back was pressured by the teacher to do well in oral exams.. couldn't sleep last nite.. nervous. so called my mei.. talk until 12.. probably i can't sleep bcoz i was forcing myself to sleep.. coz these few days also slept veri late.. so i think my body not accustomed to sleepy at 10.30pm.. earliesdt is 12 midnight.. regurgitated 2 times.. before i slept..

today is supposed to be tmy day for my o level chinese oral.. didn't go to school.. was greeted at 5.45 am with an sms.. then followed by a pain in the stomach.. gastric. so called up the school ask whether i could go later to take the oral exam just after i went to see doctor..the clerk told me to get an mc..and they will re-schedule for me.. so ok lor.. went to docs.. explained situation.. she gave me gastric pills and phlegm medicine.. ask whether i want tranquilizer to sleep.. haha.. i tell her just before the o level than i take from her.. she told me that i am veri veri stressed.. so tensed that i will kill my results becoz of stress and not because i can't realli do the paper.. so stress is my main enemy now..
haiz..

going to cut my hair after lunch.. then probably gtg back to school for band practice.. competition a few weeks more.. but concert is just 4 days away.. gtg practice despite my gastric condition..haiz.. hte most go there listen to them play also good.. but will get stressed by those ppl again.. i'm not gonna conduct if mr toh is not conducting us on monday..
have to practice my clarinet.. die la.. one week never practice le..

and can u believe juliet? she asked us to skip ALL rememdials and ALL extra lessons to go for BAND prcatice.. she says band is FIRST PRIORITY until the 22nd of july.. kaoz.. after that day i only left 48 days left to buck up everything before my prelims u noe!!!!!! i fialed chemistry and physics leh! kaoz.. THINK U ARE THE MAIN COZ OF MY STRESS...

go eat le..
bye.

came back yesterday from the cycling thingy.. not veri streneous but tiring though.. weird. it was only the return trip that was the tiring one.. oh yah..saw mr toh at the esplanade while i was there.. expected to see chiu hao.. haha.. guess it was too late le..

it's just weird talkin to u about those kind of thigns and stuff.. ok fine.. u want somebody to listen to u..don't u have HER...i thought u said u love her alot.. maybe she is open to listen to u la..i just can't talk to u about that..frankly..i think it's sick..just sick.. who SMSes another guy to tell him u got wet dream 3am in the mornin? COme on man.. i wouldn't want to wake up and check a msg like that in the mids of the night.. all u want is a person to tell ur feelings and problems to right? tell the person that IS interested in listening to lor..

back..

didn't go for tuition this morning.. was too tired and too lazy.. so i sms the teacher said i wasn't coming because i didn't get enuf sleep for 2 nights.. haha..bad..

at least i was good enuf to tell her i didn't want to go.

need to finish all my homework by this weekend.. still left with geography , bio , chem and a maths...

must qiong le..

thanks to...:
lendl for cooking noodles
paul for lending me lock and key for bike
benny for closing the door, asking for directions , carrying other ppl bike up the stairs , leading the way, holding the torch, holding the plastic bag filled with 2 bottles of mineral water while cycling back and bringing the odor control spray for ur leg.
the rest..

the previous practise in band was alrite.. no mocking and stuff.. quite ok..but they were to obsessed with thier plan..which i think didn't realli work.. haha.. judgin from the last practise.. i think we go on stage throw face onli.. u guyz better practise.. hARD.. DAMN HARD

ang mo kio's seoul garden realli veri nice... thanks to my cousin who brought a lemon for his pepsi to make it twist.. favian came up with the delicius lemon chicken!

nice..

think going there again..soon.. the service there veri good also.. funny fat guy..fat and not veri funny lady..haha

oh yah..sorry guyz.. i thought u all new favian and weixiong was there.. i told someone.. but ic an't remember who..haha.. nvm la.. geography u all do le ma? i haven't touch...doing tml..

the first 'tuition' session with my cousin on chemistry was actually quite productive haha.. now i noe how to do the mole......... couldn't belive that i didn't realli understand it at all in the first place..haha.. should have started earlier..

basically that's was my week lor.. slacked alot.. tuition alot... waste money alot..eat alot.. scolded abit.. get bite abit.. get kicked abit..

oh yah... i htink my ankle's still sprained.. dunno is sprain or wad.. so long le.. since weixiong ramed my foot that friday until now.. still pain.. haiz..

heck

can play soccer can le.

maybe i going to eat prata tml mornin..cycle there.. eh? no cannot.. fatehr going cycling in the morning.. haha forgot..
oh well..

cya guyz in school soon..

lot's to say.. but i've got so much things in mind..i can't explain all.. coz once i finish one..the others are forgotten..oh well..do wad i can.
so rumours are out.. heck care le.. just dun expect to see the same me next time i go for band.
playnig tic tac toe online..crap.
er mei.. u are crazy.. wanna bao chou also no need like that mahz.. but haha..it's a nice plan.. yewtuck's got a blogspot.. ..
today played soccer... actually got up late in the mornin.. so no time to decide anything.. so rushed.. was supposed to think which to go to..soccer or movie.. and whether i wanted to go for band or bio.. but in the end.. i did everything.. not bad..
went for bio practical den band till 12..later went to watch yas and khartik play soccer.. humiliaing those peeps..later i was joined by te e2s and 4s..which is only a few..haha.. couldn't realli play much.. everytime i stretched my left leg.. move the ankle..it hurts.. so realli..soccer sucked today. after soccer actually told hl n eve i couldn't go coz i got no money n thought it was a waste of money. but hl made me feel bad about it.. den so many other ppl went to go watch.. so to join in the laughter...literally.. i went lor.. initially i wanted hl to treat.. coz realli no money..but my emergency money finally paid off.. haha.. pardon the pun. i actually kept $22 as emergency money in my wallet..haha.. cool.. oh yah..found my aranda membership card broken into 2..no 3.. with one small dropping piece at the top.. ju-on sucks.. lousy plot..lousy everything.. only the face scary.. it's the company that counts..rushed home for tuition , den the 3 girls went to watch jolin.. i think.. not sure.

ya..that's my life for today.. any questions? bwahaha..

ever realised how a person will get influenced so unconsciously in the real world? it scares me..

ok. i am cool. that helped.

i'm looking for a word.. someone that will go to any degree to do something just to get what they wantt or rather , where they want, the type where they don't really care about others emotions or anything, oh yah, these people also want lots and lots and lots of attention. what do u call this people again? i remember! they are called BLOOD SUCKING ASS HOLES

and guess wad? i know someone JUST like that.. and u noe wad.. U guyz noe him too! bwahaha..

everything is a joke isn't it? huh? wad is that i hear u say? what? u're just kidding? oh realli? what is it again? oh! so u think it's funny rite? well let me tell u this.. it isn't the first time.. it's not the second..countless times u made wrong judgements.. wrong accusations..and just wrong things.. wad the hell.. u want attention? go get it.. BY YOURSELF why do u have to push people in the water when after all, u just want people to look at the person standing next to the river.. the one laughing at the guy in the water..

yes..u entertain ppl.. yes, i noe u like to make ppl laugh , but spare a thought for the others next time u crap something up..

ya...today finally played soccer after Sooooooooooooooo long.. missed kicking.. but mostly i got all my stuff wrong.. alot off target.. damn.. got kicked by weixiong 3 times today when trying to block his shots.. pain sia my left ankle.. so many ppl asking me to go watch ju-on..so many ppl told me it sucks too.. bought match for eve.. costs $5.95.. didn't noe so ex.. aiyah..anything..
wanna play soccer tml again or not? haha.. can skip band tml.. got bio and chem! but got a maths tuition after that.. supposed to finish 2 of the 4 test papers our school gave by tml..she wants to see.. didn't do yet. how.. sure kana scolded tml. who cares..

hmm..testing my zonk board whether it works..the thing about blog u can't see immediate changes unless u have a new entry..haiz..slow ar..

long time never play soccer..mainly bcoz my soccer ball is at weixiong there..
have to zoom back after band rehearsals... giong to lend my 2nd sis cd player tmlz..wadeva lorz.. hope dun spoil can liaoz..haha.. trust her la.

what a girl wants.. thought it wasn't a movie worth spending money for.. i was right.. downloaded it.. first part took me quite long.. 2nd part took me the time it took for the first part to finish playing..cool.. just nice.. quite a nice show.. but veri mushy type.. not realli my type...but amanda bynes quite cute..not CHIO though..sweet.

finished paert of my homework.. cool..left 7 more..

i want soccer. i wanna feel..i wanna heal... blah blah..

any of u ppl out there feelin stressed? or u feel like shit? or u've lost something in ur life? tune in to friends every tuesdays at 10opm on Channel 5!

father's day today.. being the good son i am..i bought the same thing that i bought for my mum on mother's day! haha..

NOTHING

we gave up on the house.. oh well..mum didn't like it much..i liked the giant balcony and the nice view... too bad.. not practical enuf to convince my mum and brother to move..haiz..
maybe now i can get my father to give me part of the money he was going to use to move.. to renovate my room.. i wanna design it myself this time.. since i'm gonna be stayin here for quite long le.. haha.. see how lor..

no time to watch movie with u'all le la.. no time..realli no time..remedials this whole week..somemore got tuition.

chinese and a maths..

i need help on chemistry.. cousin supposed to come today to help..
she couldn't make it.. so she said to make it on weekdays.. nights.. see how la.

er.. think i owe u guyz an apology.. or something like that..

rite. so i dun play wc3..i thinik that's the main thing that is makin me drift.. heck.. i just have no interest in demons and magic..
reminds me of harry potter..eeks.. no offense.

Nemo is a good fish to find.. so is CRUSH a good turtle to meet..u noe? it's like WOAh , then it's like woooooah..and its like.. wOoOah.. haha..

just watched mtv movie awards.. nice..TATU performed their les thing again..this time with a whole lot of girls.. who stripped their skirts and blouses of half way thru the song.. then they were dancing in wadeva they were wearing underneath...cool..i was like shocked.. it's the awards.. didn't expect something like that to happen..haha..nice eye opener..haha..

nice.

u watched sco concert on the same day i watched benny's concert? hmm.. cool.. somemore same time got home..haha..

gtgz..bye.

nothing can come from nothing.. wad have u lost? nothing! cheer up you'ol bugger..

oh yah..now i owe benny $15.50.. weixiong.. i want my soccer ball back.. u borrowed.. u didn't return..

friday the 13th..yesterday..not veri suay..but still suay..

watched benny's performance which was supposed to start early and end early at around 8.30.. that's wad he told us..
but.. it ended up endind at 9.30..

we initially wanted to go eat after that.. kenny rogers..he said..but nooooooo...we had to wait for him until 10.30pm! bcoz his toa payoh co members were cutting cake.. and he didn't want to leave em.. crap.

ok maybe the performance DID change the way i think of CO.. but i still think Co ppl have a certain attitude.. dunno why..
it was good though, the music..GOOOD.. the pipa player is so sissy.. yuck..actually come to think of it.. i didn't realli hear benny himself playin.. heck..

after that went to eat at lao pa sa.. it was the only place open at that hour.. duh.. then couldn't catch the last MRT.. crap.. even ran to station. too bad..benny had to pay for the $20+++++++++++++++++ taxi ride..
bwahaha..

didn't do any studying this week though.. although i'm supposed to have finished a few chapters of chem and bio.. my homework is not even touched yet. nvm.. i'm going to do it in and hour's time.. new target.. finish holiday homework in this two days of the weekend..

cousin is coming over to help me in my chem tml .. good.. i need it

think shifting house liaoz.. but it's just another uinit in season's park.. but its big.. nice.. and airy..

and it cost about the same price as the present unit we're living in.. cool..
guess if we DO manage to shift over.. i'll get to design my own room..haha..and it's a change of view too..from the pool view.. to the city view.. argh.u'll get wad i mean when u DO come over next time.. IF that is..

yesterday they went to safra to play pool.. didn't call me..haiz..wadeva

ever realised how ppl just can't take the fact that 2 ppl can click so well just as good friends. perhap these ppl, just have such a patehtic life they have to blew up an issue ( one that is made up of crap ) of another person, just to get attention from people.

Perhaps.

now i understand. being a victiim of one of those crap stories u tell.. it's not the first time even. count urself lucky. one more time. strike 3..baseball terms.

u 3 ppl..wait..or isit 4.. u almost ruined my life.. stop saying those things.. it's stupid. and i always get shivers...don't say anymore. u the creator are the onli ones that can erase it.

yes.i noe.dun dare to care. it's my nature. i dun show wad i realli feel sometimes.. not that i'm a hypocrite of wad..just that if i dun feel it's rite..i dun show it..probably its the way i'm brought up. maybe that's why i think the rest are changing when acutally is my mind changing into a different view of the world.. its true right? when u get to noe more ppl...ur perception of the world will change. maybe i'm not strong-willed, easily get influenced..yes true. but i prefer to call it.. open-mindedness..i'm open to new ideas which i find cool..eeh?crap..talking crap..

it take both sides to realise..
2 to fight ..
conclusions can be wrong if u jump violently at it..
too deep and u may drown..
too tight and u'll suffocate..

thanks..u sorta helped me.. so ya..i'll lend it to u.. lakz la..

and benny..stop saying alamak.. i noe that's ur IN thing now..but it's sorta gettin nervy.. no offense.heck..it's a free world. do wad u want.

FREE WORLD with rules.. now wadz that supposed to mean?
huh? wad toking me?
crap..
postponed my a maths tuition..now doing..still got one tmapines sec school prelim paper one to complete and lots of other integration questions!!! haiz..

got a new free bag.

yesterday night..shiok..first time played soccer at night so competitively..8-10pm..with primary school friends and his.. two south africans joined in later..wait..or isit south americans.. who cares..they quite power..strong..tall..big framed..fast..creative..

got two blisters on sole of foot..too much friction. somemore small toe on my right foot has clogged up blod and blisters..and dunno wtf..

after that came back..got the worst cramps of mylife..first was the toe..so i stretched..than bcoz i stretched that part..than the hamstring cramp..than dunno wad to do..stretch one the other cramp.. so no choice..called mother.. on phone..i use hp call..our house..dumb..and i was in my room.worst still..she dunno what to do. so suffered in agony for about 15 min.. than smsed alot of ppl for advise.. haha..thanks guyz

oh yah..forgot to mention the court i played in was as big as our present school court yard.. and it's street soccer..alot of space..nice..
fully caged somemore..and best ..it's just two traffic lights down from my place.. can go there often liaoz..haha..

oh well..everypme take care. dun be a f-ed up person like me.. it'll lead to crap..

wad crap

-out-

inkjets outta black ink..gotta go to benny's house to print..haiz..so much work to complete by today ..so little time..and i can't believe i'm still sitting here crapping away at my com..
going to play soccer later at st soccer court near horizon gardens..probably about 5 mins away on bike.. see whether i can join hteir team or if not get them to come form one.. benny's going too..

8pm-10pm soccer with my primary school ex-classmates..how cool is that.. just hope that my blister on my right toe dun give me too much trouble later.. it's gonna hurt..there's supposed to be 3 weeks of HOLIDAY! a BREAK from school..guess wad.. seems that almost everyweek i've gotta go back school for remedial and stuff..worst still..my a maths and chinese tutor wants to push me during these holidays coz my results sucked..haiz.. still need to buck up on chemistrym physics and biology..gonna finish ten year series of those 3 sciences by these school hols.. at least i hope i can..

still on MC..but still want to play soccer..no choice..if not i won't get to play liao..somemore soccer ball not with me.. looking at the situation now.. seems that those that used to play soccer with me have lost that interest..no more lon ghours of soccer.. now the most i've played with them is 1 hr... haiz.. hope is just bcoz of the bad weather..and the Os..

i realli feel i'm driftin.. someone catch me and bring me back..please..

the things that he said weren't true..dun believe..that is if he said anything..she still crazy over u..i'm still crazy over someone else..
dun be so naive to believe things that dun have a basis..

only a few more months left and this is happening..crap..rather live with it then spoil it.

and u..i dun seem to understand u anymore..i used to be able to..but now wheneva u talk..i can't differentiate whether u are trying to be sacrcastic or trying to be funny..or are u just trying to insult me.. i dunno...realli dunno.. is it me whose changing or u ?

i realised y$#&%#^ is like rain..a conventional friend..comes and goes easily..

i've been thinkin alot lately.. crab breedin..how about it?

and also benn thinkin alot lately..

ohyah..anyone now a cure for sleepless nights before big examinations?

i can't..not like this..

Os was simple but i couldn't take advantage of the situation! crap..crap..

heard something about me..some created rumour again..
come on la.. i'm not that type..i wouldn't do such a thing.. in other words..its not TRUe..if it were true why the hell would i say it out loud! crap la.. i'm not that type of person..

ptm today..missed a one on one..so paisei..

Ok

didn't update this blog for a long long time now..stupid exams.
i did veri badly.. probably was the worst result ever of all my 15 + years of my life.. haiz.. failed 2 main subjects.. not counting social studies..howz.. i'm just not ment to be a science student

i think.


this few days...getting closer..like the feeling..think found liao..best friend..ie..
getting further..i feel.. from the other person.. don't know why..received news today..mixed feelings..sappy..haha..think p*&(k%^& is veri flirt.. dun u think so..realised h^%!&^5 is veri suitable for photo shoots...can be model. 2 short..seems 2 me i'm not 1 of them..haiz..why?..is it me who changed? or them? i suddenly start to find some of them rather childish.. even myself..i dunno why..but seems to making alot of new friends..he closest getting further..furthest getting closer..weird..why can't be selfish..have both parties..y come and go?

now for the REAL update..
sharon tan married.. to dominic heng..
failed chem
failed physics
c for chinese
c for bio
3 for maths
A1 FOR A MATHS
so horrigible.. how? horrigible.. dunno how to face parents..they probably will try to get a tutor.. but ain't it too late for tutor? have to try my best to save time.and money..mums gettin retrenched..she volunteered... guess have to rely on eldest mei liao..( i hope i can )
ok..did a weird thing yesterday.. as i was picking up a key chain ring for e@#$@% , i was on one knee, the words just came out of my mouth..haha.. weird.. luckily.. jokingly.. she blushed.

benny didn't wanna play..can't blame him..and he was finding for someone to ensure he doesn't make the wrong decision i think..thanks for finding that person..

have a new sorta resolution.no not resloution..resolution is always something i wun do.. so it should be a must do thing..nvm.. started doing today liao.. hope can accomplish..plannned out 3 week schedule to improve sciences. was abruptly destroyed.. demolished..by the Ms tanS' and morais's remedial classes.. crap..now must reduce to 2 weeks... lesser tuime to cover 1 and half years work! die.. mei..must help me! i am almost desperate for help.. MUSt ar..

oh yah.. outof that.. i got thrid for talent time solo catagorie... congrats to u weekeong.. u deserve the number one position..
ALiff... U sucked.
ok so u were more emotional than me..so wad? doesn't give a reason for judges to ...dotz..
my song was hard to express.. wasn't thinking of that SOMEONE when singing it..
and to everyone.. i was pointing at our class up there! not that person u think i was pointing to! haha..

thanks for ur support.. actually wanted to dedicate to 2e4 2001 peeps.. but later 4e2 peeps jealous..haha..
c0uldn't make it without u..

group.. i thought benny tried his best.. not bad.. it was ok la..
COP was alrite..

jerald ur guitar skills rocks. yewtuck..u should be in the top three, shakin ur bon bons..

beginning to see the darker side of #%^@$^ , oh well.. live by my nick... MY HOPE"S A DREAM.. this time.. my hope WAS a dream..
bcoz now there isn't any hope..

better conc on studies.. Os important.. maybe this time's result can convince parents i'm not jc material.
but wun i be bringing them into an awkward pos..they always wanted me to go to university..safe route..
not much money in savings left too.. no $$ to send overseas.. wad can i do..
i'm not like my bro..dun expect that. he was brainy.. i'm more arty sporty..i think. come on.. he went to RI! i went to wad AI!
he went to aj.. with a vision to take law in u..

that's not wad i wanna be.. nto a lawyer...not a doctor.. my dreams.. my aspirtations.. did u even botehr to ask? maybe u did.. when i wasn't sure..now i'm thinking.. but the options of them are not in JC..mine is in poly..

ok sure.. ofcoz i thought of the business thingy..whether i can get a job in this society..blah blah blah.. but think about it.. if i was real good at it? if i was the best at it.. won't it be a waste.. i'll be wasting my life on something i'm not even comfortable in.. imagine..


waD if i WAS....

is my hope really a dream? or is my dream this time really just something i can hope for..

someone pls.. answer..life is short

benny's tone deaf..
just like yt..haiz.. cannot blame.. different type of music that we come in contact with..


-pity-

dunno wad i'm gonna sing for solo..
got a few choices.. first choice's when u say nothign at all by ronan keating, but cannot find the minus one version.. dunno how..
hope the school's system can help reduce the noise so can hear my voice..haha..

other choices include , a whole new world , back for good , your song , somewhere out there..
other songs i tried... too hgih ranged..

if realli no choice.then i must do it MY WAY liaoz..

finished exams liao! think i'm gonna fail chem , bio and physics..
nvm take it as lesson.. improve during sch hols.. must be determined.. cannot play liao..

chinese o's in 2 weeks , not realli ready.. must convince my tuition teacher, and myself ofcoz, that i can do it..
if not.. wasted 6 years of teaching from her..
cannot let myself , my parents and my tuition teacher down..

haiz.. tried so many songs... must find one soon..

any suggestions? i need to decide by thursday...

-crap-

student councillors are not doing wad the school said they were supsoped to be doing..' take care of the welfare of the pupils' my foot your head.. they are becoming more like the slaves of the disciplinary mistress.. going around doing her dirty work.. probably she thinks ppl will hate the SCs instead of her.. i mean i can't balme the Sc but come on la.. can't u voice out more often.. aren't u sick of the decisions made? or do u ppl just follow blindly? WELFARE OF THE PUPILS ppl!

top ten reasons why the person in-charge of the whole SC sucks:

10.no flexibility
9.u ppl seem like slaves to mojojojo
8. follow instructions like DOGS
7.SC gotta take the shit for everything the SCHOOL wants
6.SC takes the punch when students disagree with them...school stands behind and gives ' morale support'
5.SC that wants to help the 'welfare of students' are all sacked
4. seems that those that quit bcoz they think it sux.. have been labeled as sacked..
3. must see the belt.. if not detention for u.. for boys..
2.4 fingers from pants.. tuck in ur shirt..

and the last zhen hao is still standing at THE GATES for 5 months now!

can't realli balme SCs.. just doing their job.. but come on.. u gotta see the situation before making a decision.. call urself leaders?
don't be losers..

for those on our side. hope u triumph..

a basketball is also a ball..
and SC notice said that no ball should be played in the courtyard.. basketball is being played.. nothing wrong..
but when we go there and play light passing.. they come and confiscate how soccer ball..
FLEXIBILITY PEOPLE!
look at the damned situation..there WAS no handicapped.. we weren't destroying property.. IT'S JUST LAME LIGHT PASSING OF THE BALL ON THE FLOOR! and u confiscate it..

and u expect an apology letter? BWAHAHA..

toes are laughing

all crap.. all of u crap..
i salute those flexible enuf Sc. ( yas, mini-dice, kok..etc)

let's have a oppostion party.. see how the school fall..

haben updated this for such a long time.. it has got digital cobwebs liaoz.. haha lame
haiz.. talent time audition yesterday.. sucks..thought i did rather well for solo.. group sux..
tml is my a maths tuition.. but i've got 2.4 km run.. can't make it.. wad am i supposed to do? i postpone once liaoz.. from sunday to today.. haiz.. any other day in this week i can't make it except for tml.. HOW? i need help in my a maths.. damned run..
just got news that both my audition performances got thru..

mixed feelings

mostly is shock..
now anger.. coz apparently THEY almost wanted to boot out of the competition bcoz ^%^&$%$ said ' are u sure i can sing?'
WAD CRAP! u CAN"T BOOT ME OUT OF THE COMPETITION JUST LIKE THAT.. U WON'T GET RID OF ME THAT EASY!!

now for the good guyz..
the 3 of u .. u noe who u are.. i'll give u a treat.. moveis..
x-men 2?

benny's paying half.

now i'm realli dumbfounded.. wad to do for finals.. i dun wanna get kicked out.. whether for solo or group.. but apparently..frankly speaking.. $@@*& and #^!*^!) can't realli sing.. we've got to think of a way to make ourselves look good..no singing for u guyz anymore.. no offense..

that is unless u can convince me u are good enuf..

now back to me..
someone said i was flat..and another almost kicked me out..according to #@^%$^ it was all bcoz of y#^@%^k.. if i was to get jicked bcoz of the dancing freak..ok not freak maybe.. no offense.. than something worse than the iraqi war will happen..

and it's not SARS..

k fine.. i'm being damned lame today..maybe bcoz i haven't played soccer in like 3 years...
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well ok maybe just a week or more.

haha..
man utd won the title.. take that ARSENAL!
BWAHAHA...the little arrogant freaks.. they deserved the defeat..
go man utd..

-out-

man utd won tottenham 2-0 cool.. it's amazing scholes can jump up and head at such at quick time.. his not the tallest player too..
the win sees man utd go top of arse-nal 5 points ahead.. ofcoz..with arsenal a game in hand..haha.. arsenal can prepare for the next season liaoz.. seems like the only cup THEY will be handling is the WORTHLESS CUP..oops did i say worthless i meant worthington...HAHA. ( cliche )

well.. i finally finished my chinese homework.. apparently i can't find my five year series. too bad..

i realli can't decide wad to do for talent time.. i already have y options in mind , but which do i choose.. i've been told to decide by tml. my initial plan was to compete against yewtuck ( dance ) and edmund ( sing) in the individual section.. but benny made me an offer rather tendelising.. hmm.. i dunno lehz.. i've never heard benny sing before.. dunno wad to do..

tml's 2.4 km run..can't miss this.. i already missed my 5 items..haha. 2.4 km run.. die. i think i over strained my leg muscle while learning to 'bend-it-like-beckham" but i htink i'm already getting the hang of it. yea.. placement and crossing getting better.. just need to improve on speed, stamina and finishing .. ofcourse.. less shoving. if it was a real match i guess i've already made the most fouls..
haha. ppl say i elbow them sometimes.. i can't help that i'm taller than them can i?

oh well.. supposed to finish social studies by tml.. 8 essay qns.. haben done any.. dunno wad am i to do.. heck care liaoz la.. crap

i'm gonna start studying liaoz.. i mean studyuing harder.. i've slacked by alot since ct1.. must fa fen tu qiang..

but the main qn remains..

now and forever ? or somewhere out there?

let fate decide

just had a chat with my parents about whether or not to go to poly or JC.. seems that they already set their mind on me going to JC..CRAP! ARGH! before i could say anything my father just said ' of course go university' which emans for me to take the straight route from JC to the U.. before i could say that i liked the architecture and interior designing course in poly..they just ahve the mind set that going to poly is the WRONG choice.. why are they so old-fashioned.. why can't they just let me say what i have to say and just explain the reasons for me to go to jc than poly..rather than just INSISTING i go to JC.. crap..crap..guess i have my life already planned 'PERFECTLY' ...haiz.. wonder if this is really the right choice to listen to them. heard better things at poly then at jC.. haiz.. dunno what to do..