that sorta celaers thigns up a little. at least on the birhgt side it looks like a hands-off warning. haha. er...

well.. turns out that she came back online.. haha,, she told me she answered him le.. now 'm awaiting the answer. she said yes.

haiz... dman depressing arhz.. i waited the whole nite on msn just to be able to talk to her on msn.. then she went to watch tv she said.. when she came back she said she gtg.. wad the hell.. haiz.. wadz the use. she won't even come to visit this place will she?

dun pretty much of thinking today..was sick today so spent whole day at home.. sleeping , slacking and thinkin alot.. but i still can't get it straight.. why do i have to feel this way? i hate htis bloody feeling.. feeling on confusion and unsurity.. unsuirty.. is that even a word? arh.. who cares. u got my point.. dman ads keep popping up on my screen.. dman irritaitn.

it's now almost 1am.. i waited since 10 to chat with her.. luckily for me.. there are others online.. haiz.. i dunnow hy but i have this feeling.. this hope that she doesn't agree to him.. i duno why even..i think i still feel something.. i hate this.. everytime i see her or talk to her or just walk next to her i feel this small flame being rekindled.. maybe it was never even put out..

sista remindered me of the thing i said i would do o HER on grad nite.. if u'all wanna noe wand that is.. go read my previous blogs.. haha.. haiz..

i hope she'll win in the end. like they said.heehee.

Graduation was last ntie.. had too much to eat and too much loud music pumped into my head.... perspiration and cold air dun mix.. got sick.. guyz wanted to chill out somewhere or just just walk and walk and walk after that.. so we did just that.. i was bloody sick.. veri xin ku.. nbut i still continued.. haha.. but apparently at around 12 mid night some ppl wanted to go home liaoz.. haiz.. nvm...

yesterday was quite memoriable rite.. i mean.hehe. everyone can see some old flames rekindled and stuff haha.. i shalt not mention any names.. haiz.. ok.. yesterday was the first time i saw ppl wearing so nice outfits.. woah.. iliyas's was the best man.. beige leather coat and pants with a black turtle neck.. pro..the girls eh.. i thought most them looked nice.. yah.. the girls were like so elboratedly dressed up for the nite.. haha.. not like some teachers who were like.. so casually dressed.. but nvm la.. like we care. at least no one wore the same shirt clr as me. benny , chiu hao and yewtuck wore exactly the same colours.. haha.. lucky.. didn't go to those common shops like g2000 and u2 to buy...

well.. the food sucked.. not up to standard la.. everything was rrather tasteless.. yah.. orh maybe bcoz i was already kinda sick b4 that..

the lindy hop dance thing was ok ok la.. i mean for thsoe that participated it was kinda er.. ok la. quite fun. but for htose sitted they were thought to tdo stupid hand actions.. haha. most of them think is kinda lame.. can't blame them right.. i mean... seriously. those were stupid hand actions. most of them were just sitting there chattin.. tkain photos.. hmm.. maybe its not so bad after all..

i didn't get to take enuf photos... was too busy i guess. oh yah. won second prize in the lucky draw.. haha.. my 007 number actually was kinda lucky.. hehe.. not bad.. a canon scanner worth $149 haha... iliyas wanted to buy it for $50.. nahz.. dun think i'm gonna sell it. i've been needin a scanner for veri long liaoz..

think the best part of the night was the dancing part.. it could have been more fun if ALL the e4ians had joined in.. oh well.. it's not the first day we know them. anw we had fun.. we actually brought the crowd in the mood together with MR row and gang mann.. first it was the train.. we started out with 5 ppl.. chris leading, then shaun , me, xiong and benny.. then the train continued.. woah.. it was like damn long. power siahz.. haiz.. hl and eve didn't participate in anything.. neither did favian and johny and zhihao and blah blah blah.. hope they had fun watchin.. hehe.. maybe they didn't wana get their clothes wet..

after that had a lot of photo takin.. was drenched in my own sweat mann.. who cares.. natural is nicer.. took with the ppl i wanted to take with.. the e4ians especially.. it was cool... i never knew 2e4 was so big.. woah.. it's like alot of us man.. it was cool..

hah.. oh yah.. Mdm SHaron tan got kinda shocked to see my hair like that.. hehe.. in fact i was kinda shocked to see myself as well..anyway now it's back to normal..

yah.. we spent the nite ,or morning romaing the streets for something to do.. the guyz la. and hl , eve and mj.. the rest went home...... xiong got lost on the way.. i thought he was following us.. i dunnno wad he was doing sleeping on the bridge opposite fullerton.. i woke him up.. i mean.. i called his name. he got up.. then i dunno liaoz.. didn't manage to get him le.. nahz guess he went home.. or somethin..

i dunno.. it feels pretty weird.. it's like i'm missing somethin in my life now.. i dunno.. like something is not complete.. i dun feel that i've done wad i shud have done.. hmm... dunno..

so many things to say.. but my fingers are gettin tired from all this typing.. it's 12.41 in the after noon now.. maybe i'll come back later to cont blogging about last nite.. in the mean time, i'll go gunbouding.. haha.. that cheers me up a little... now thinkin whether to watch wishing stairs with kok they all later.. cya peeps.. peace out

i realised ppl can change if left to face with boredom for several hours.. haha..

bought so much stuff these few days.. actually not much.. but feel like it's a lot.. yesterday went to queens way and pondered a long time whether or not to buy the boots..it was $79. i onli sold my predator for $40.. but salam sold it to me for $55.. thought it was rather reasonable.. then today i went back again.. reaslised i needed a pair of casual wear shoes and slippers as well.. and i got them lorz.. went to suntec at first to check out the price.. wanted to buy there initially.. luckily i went to salam.. got a discount from $113 to $75.. not bad.. haha.. going to spend money tml again before the soccer thingy.. buy grad nite shirt.. haha. ya.. noone's online..cya

o's finally over..
breathed a sigh of relief after the paper today.. THE LAST ONE.. bwahaha.. but after that it didn't realli feel veri ' last day' it felt veri ..erm.. shitty. brought ball.. soccer shoe.. initial plan was to go hockey court.. play soccer.. some didn't want to. some wanted to play bball.. haiz.. if wanna play bball tell me on monday lahz.. den i dun bring ball mahz.. haiz.. nvm la..

eventually also went there to play soccer.. sucked though.. place was too big and i kept missing chances.. den tried practicing finishing.. i realli suck.. wad a 'boost' to my confidence for the game tml.. erzz.. hope got enuf ppl to play la.. if not i call 2 of friends come join us le.. so far only got shaun, vian , chris , xiong, chiu ,me .. benny and kevin.. dunno whether they can play.. haiz.. played too much today i think..

supposed to feel happy today.. why isit i feel so damn down... must be the soccer-bball issue.. tmd la.. like that dunno whether saturday they playin or not.. at least i noe xy will be playing.. tan too.. benny also trying to force recovery.. if really cannot get enuf ppl get my 2 friends la.. one offensive wan.. one defensive.. they quite pro wan.. haha..

life seems so meaningless.. nothing to look forward to nowadays.. we realli should get a chalet or somesort la.. or its equivalent.. heck.. yea..just received a msg from her.. haha.. she'll never noe how much that means to me man.. hee..

anybody going to buy clothes for grad nite? i also need to buy.. will galdly accompany u.. (depends la)

a little short on cash lately.. need to buy so many things.. boots , jersey, grad nite clothes, mindice bday present ( my share costs $20 ) , favian's bday present and a treat for jn.. think will ask my parents soon..

well.. cya..

yea.. it's the end of another week.. woah.. long time never see this place. didn't surf net for long time too.. yea.. all 3 sciecnes finished now only left 2 papers!! yea geography and a maths p2..

gotta learn to watch my temper and the stuff i say.. i tend to over do things recently.. frustrated with myself prob.. yea. must be the exams.. THE EXAMS.. seems like 4 yrs of work going down the drain after each paper.. yea..every paper i take brings me one step away from target of 12 points.. haha my hope's a dream.. think will prob go to poly le.. yea. i mean i noe my father doesn't want me to.. but when the results are out wad can anybody do? haha..

they gonna buy jersey and stuffs.. hey.. isn't the jersey thing supposed to be a class thingy and not a soccer thingy.. heck.. wad d hell.. anyway some ppl also not buying.. kaoz so many things to buy.. still need to give favian and mindice birthday present.. think won't get too ex le.. no choice. hehe.. wait for x'mas lor. :p think i've gotta give someone a treat for lending me her tys during this Os.. yea.. should get her something maybe.. oh well.. chem today was ok i guess.. p2 la. p1 i totally crapped up.. physics i think die le... i mean i couldn't even remember i had to use f=ma for the 1st question!! die la.. hell.. bio was ok too.. hope can get at least a B for all science.. gotta bang on my a maths and maths le..

yea..choosing jersey numbers .. i chose 22.. dunno why.. so far the taken ones are:
1-alvin
5-kok
6-xiong
7-tan
9-chris
10-vian
11-huat
14-TLG
15-kevin
16-zhiwei
17-xiangyong
22-ME
25-zhihao
34-benny

sorry if i left anyone out.. i can't remember realli.. haha..so many single digits left..

gtg le.. a maths tuition tml 9am. gonna study with ppl at woodlands lib after that.. must get a1 for geography! haha.. my hope's a dream!

-Dis angel made my life a bitch!

yea! this week is over! bwahaha.. 4 yrs of maths and chinese finally over! bwahaha! ss and english also over... now must prepare for 5 more subs.. bio , chem , physics, a maths and geography.. after that is freedom! bwahaha.. haha.. 4 yrs of my life just going in a flash.. feels a bit weird.. think i'll feel saddened definitely after this yr.. i mean. if we go our seperate ways.. ya. definitely will miss all of ya..especially the guyz..

anywayz.. played soccer after the chinese o's today.. so lame. didn't even study yesterday.. and i went to sit for it.. paper 1 over at 10.. went to eat den take ball at vian house.. reached sch 12. still got time to study. haha. went thru my book.. glance thru la.. then went out of the library awhile to join tuck , zhen hao and eve.. haha.. the 3 of them.. scaring each other.. test chiense words.. i didn't noe most of them. anyway i think they studied so hard for nothing much.. i didn't even study and iknew how to do most of the han zi and zao ju..haha.. guess 6 yrs of tuition didn't go to waste.. yah.. gotta pia sciences and a maths liao.. need all the help i can get!

haiz.. lost my soccer..haha. realli.. no skill le. dis few days play super off form.. den will get a little tempremental when i dun perform to my expectations..haiz.. who cares. must be the exams.

seems that i'm always waiting for her.. dunno why. when i come on msn i wish she comes online. when i check my hp i wish her name appears in my inbox.. when i study i wish she would be there to support me.. i get a little bit worried when i see her wif someone else..i dunno.. dunno whether it's just another illusion of my curiousity.. or wad.. maybe i should try to get to noe her better..

next week alot of ppl birthday.. no choice. u'all gotta accept wad we give.. no money la.. still must save to buy shirt for grad nite. and a pair of shoes. and a bag. and a laptop. haha.. that's after my exams la..

still yet to design my room.. i dun wanna ove into the new place with nothing in my room.. haha.. looking for inspiration.. prob will get it after o's anyway i dun have the heart to do anything except worry and study and think about stuff.. not that kinda stuff.. nice stuff..

soccer match.. 7 a side? maybe.. jersey? some may not buy.. boots.. some may not have. why don't we wear pe attire? just a suggestion.. i dun mind doing the above but the rest? i dunno..

quite tired.. blisters on my leg.. gtg le.. she reply liaoz.

u noe wad? U suck man.. i just can't stand u..realli.. u suck. when speaking o u on the phone i try.. i realli try not to be rude to u or anything.. trying to talk to u like a normal fren.. but i just can't do it.. u are a bloody ass hole.. suepr kiasu.. super hypocratic and u are super matrialistic.. i just can't stand u. you are 2 diff ppl infront of teachers and other ppl.. u're so FAKE... u FREAK. haiz.. no point insulting u so much anyway.. no point.. u won't even come online to look at our blogs anymorez.. when was the last time u even touched urs? irritating piece of shit.. i dunno why there is this grudge.. but i just can't lift that grudge.
in short. YOU DISGUST ME.
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it's been a long time since i last updated this man.. anyway it's the o's u peeps won't coem see unless ur dman free rite.. so wad the heck. u'll prob read this a few days after i've finished it.. haha.

anyway.. was the emaths paper today.. supposed to be easy.. i found it relatively ok.. but shit.. careless mistakes and stupid errors.. made me loose 8 marks le.. die.. if can't get 85 and above then sure a2 or less le.. confirm moderate de mah.. hell..

anywayz the dman ss is tml afternoon with english.. haiz.. ss is after eng at 2pm.. so think i've still got some time to sort thigns out alittle.. i haven't touch english.. heck.. it's a language.. not something u can study overnight.. ok.. mayeb i could get some inspiration of somesort from some reading materials.. shit.. i've not been reading books since like when.. sec 2 ? damn.. later just gonna glance at the format of the letter writing thingy..

studying all themes for ss except growth and venice.. so that leaves theme 1 ,2 ,3 and 5.. finished 2 and 3 le.. read thru 5 le.. going to memorise later.. have to read thru the rest of the book to.. just in case.. hehe..

to the e4ian boys: not confirm.. but there shud be a soccer match 2 weeks after we finish o levels.. so it's prob on the 1st or second weekend of december.. venue should be the field near my house.. u noe? follow bus 854 route.. versus my cousin's church friends. they're bout 25-25 yrs of age.. be prepared..11-a-side i think.

to everyone: good luck for ur o levels! forget about tkj's lame talk about doing and trying ur best.. it's almost the same thing at the olevels... coz u can't guarantee u are DOING ur best can u? u onli can TRY to..haha..

pardon the typo's i've gotta run..

gonna play soccer for 3 weeks after o's..