hmm.. going out in 5 mins.. meeting the normal ppl.. going out. somewhere. not yet decided. happy new year to all. see u all next year. now is the last time i'll be able to touch my com for the year of 2004.. i've gotta make a few new year resolutions.. haha..

Resolutions for the new year

1. Spend more time on work.
2. Set priorities right.
3. Get her.
4. Play GOOD soccer.
5. Get fit.
6. be punctual.
7. Try not to take MCs just to skip classes
8. Take MCs when i'm realli sick
9. Remember ppls birthdays
10. Be happy throughout the year!

oh damn.. i guess my 6th resolution isn't realli gonna happen before 2005.. i'm already late! it's 4.54 now.. i'm supposed to meet them at 5! oh no! shall rethink- re edit my resolutions on 1/1/2005.. haha.. happy birthday to john tan first.. just in case.. i've gotta go! See u'all in the near year!

i'll say i it to u soon! ( not to u, for those of u that manage to read this.)

Happy New YEAR everyone!

and may all ur wishes come true!

watched phantom of the opera yesterday... its a veri nice show.. veri veri nice. i guess it would b better in the theatres.. with a live band and all.. the soundtrack just rocks.. hats off to andrew lloyd webber.. i think that's how u spell it.. anyways.. i finally got to watch the show.. instead of just knowing how parts of its music goes.. without knowing the reason behind it.. the phantom is realli just a traumatised, desperate, music genius who has gone crazy... over the years.. yeah. that's wad i think he is..

gonna go queesnway tml.. spend money.. hmm.. getting jerseys.. and maybe a shoe.. i need a good walking pair of shoe actually.. can't keep wearing the adidas indoor soccer shoe everywhere i go..

ok.. shan't blabber too much today.. got econs to do.. at least i'll try.. missed friday's lecture so i doubt i can complete it today.. which reminds me.. i need to fill up my LOA soon. yeahz.. ciao.. the new year's near.. new year is on the 8th day of christmas..haha.. i just realised.. hah.

i'm damn sick now. just woke up. missed dinner. told them to go without me. wanted sleep. bad things happened just now. i'm damn sienz now. stupid IDEAS module.

dad just came back with food. i go eat. 10.39. weird time for dinner.'

it wouldn't hurt to tag.

went for match today. unfit. sick. stomach got prob. got flu. phlegm in my throat. DAmn sick. but i still wanted to play. i played like shit today. mainly bcoz i couldn't work with renkun la.. he damn pro. calm and composed. but he likes to play as a sweeper and me as a stopper.. abit weird.. nvr tried that b4.. with chongyu we play flat 4.. anyway.. my stomach was bothering me at half time.. so i decided to take a rest.. den on the 20+ min of second half i subbed john tan.. went in to cover right back again.. i totally suck at that position.. too slow to react.. can't read.. was not on top of my game today.. unfit la.. my throat veri dry like tt.. lots of phlegm and i feel veri er.. bloated? sick. anyway we didn't lose. we were winning 2-0 at half time. den when i came out. the got another 2 goals. and conceded one. den due to some stupid mistakes the other side managed to equalize.. i think so la.. wasn't realli concentrating on the match.. just felt sick.

basically that's it. we drew with them 5-5 in the end. i fell. bruised my left arm slightly. after the match sat around. bought drinks. got a cab back with benny. he was rushing to work.. he pay. so.haha. ate some leftovers . bathed. came here to type. it's been a long time since i did that.. bloggin i mean.

a little recap..

wednesday. didn't want to go school. went to get my hair cut. den came back. went to yishun in the mornin to get doc's Mc, went to cold storage. didn't get anything. came back. was already feeling quite sienz. later mindice ,eunice came to learn new songs for the countdown on x'mas eve. practiced a bit. benny came. drums was loud. finished pract rather late. tired. ate dinner at KFC. at first had a craving. den. horrible. it just sucked.

thursday. went to school. finished school at 2. hazry came to jam with us. reasonably good drummer. we played a few christmas songs. ran thru some old tunes. alvin came. he wasn't in good mood. something in school. but he learn his parts veri fast. finished playin everything. already round 10?1030? not sure. went to 925 to eat with eunice and dice.. ban mian stall. tried the fuzhou fishball noodles. not bad.

friday: x'mas eve. supposed to start school at 11 tt means i have to leave the house at 9.45 in order to make it there on time. went down stairs at 1015. decided i was going to be late.. so better take cab. waited. 15 mins. no cab. went home. skipped school in the end. it's just 1 hour of econs lecture. anyway spend my morning playing drums and going thru my songs. dey came earli. mindice and eunice. they did the powerpoints for the lyrics of the x'mas songs. we ran thru some parts. den i had to rush up and down. alvin came. me and him helped to arrange the chairs and stuff. den the rest came. all helped to carry the parts of the drum kit and amps and guitars down. went down. practiced a few songs. my guitar was a little outta tune.. didn't care. no time to. kick drum pedal just sucked. went upstairs with chiu hao to fix it for like 20 mins. came down. eat a little. den gotta a lot of ppl talking to me. so i was the MC. we started of by playing a few christmas songs. didn't play veri well. but i guess it was ok. den it was games.. by my mum. some memory game. den genieve my other MC gave a performance by herself.. some violin piece named 5th concerto or something.. den 2 other pieces with mindice accompanying her.. on the keyboard. den it was us again. performance. played 1 last christmas song. den starting with the pop songs and oldies.. i think ppl enjoyed that better than the christmas songs. we played better also. cept for the fact that my guitar was a little off tune. after many pieces.. tony and eddie came to perform on stage. we had to become a make shift band. yongsin my couz-in-law on bass.. albert on guitar with tony himself. and ofcoz.. me on the drums.. eddie. as himself. or rather.. elvis presley.. a veri old and wrinkled one suffering from spasms and retardation or soemthing.. but he sings well. entertaining.. damn funny. so after bout 45 mins of elvis and oldies. ( apache ). we got on to line dancing. didn't realli want to dance. but mindice eunice and benny was veri on.. so joined in. taught them. or rather helped my mum to teach a few dances.. simple ones.. like jingle bell rock.. electric slide.. cowboy cha cha and wild wild west.. or something like tt.. the rest slacked outside by the pool. nearing 12.. john shaun and alvin head home first.. didn't stay for the countdown. the rest did. chew yuen went off at 9+ i think.. felt bad not being able to entertain her.. but.. i was so busy! so everyone went home after a few performance by tony and eddie again. with yongsin again on the guitar. dis time with zhiliang on the drums. and me on the keys. had a hard time trying to play with them. coz i can't hear my self on the keys.. the speakers were too far away.. had to figure out the chord progression for all those songs like on the spot. some i couldn't catch. some i think i did ok.. haha. eunice mindice and chris stayed over. the rest went home. benny and the bullion gang went to orchard to do nothing. haha. smashed candy cane outside my house. benny. watched dodgeball. went to eat. watched a little of national treasure. slept.

x'mas day.. got up.. father decided to treat those that stayed over to lunch at safra restaurant.. so.. went there. ate. er. after tt wanted to play street soccer actually. but onli like 4 ppl free.. so decided to go to dice house to play pool.. coz yewtuck so hot play pool.. dunno why also. so went there. around 4+.. played 3 games. sang karaoke. auntie came to fetch me to OCC to meet my family for the penang buffet thing. $23 per person. the food is not up to standard. after actually going to penang and tasting the best of the best around.. the penang food fair is no longer appetising to me anymore.. we used to go there and find the food reasonably good. this time, my brother said.. he didn't even want to go for seconds.. so after tt went home.. got on the com.. talked on the phone. slept. had to prepare my self for today's match.

and finally.. events of today are all in the first few paragraphs... haha.. so i'm sick. and tml there is the stupid IDEAS presentation of the plasticine models and drawings. sienz. dun feel like going. later at nite supposed to go dinner near clarke quay with couzing siew hwee and yong sin.. see how.. might not feel like going. runny nose now...

wednesday going to get team kit.. finally.. pay for all first.. $28 per person.. so we have 14.. that's 28 x 14.. er.. bout $400? er.. ok la.. i might get 2 shirts. haha. different numbers. like favian. he took both 11 and 13.. i might take 22 and something else. or not. see my mood.

yeah. thats my x'mas weekend for u.. summarised in just these few words.. new year's around the corner.. new resolutions again i think.. i didn't fulfill any of those i wrote last year. i think. well.. yeah. sad. resolutions..

yesterday had inspiration to write a song. to do something.. but.. didn't get on with it.. not today. maybe tonite? maybe.

merry x'mas !!

its back to sch tml.. haha.. so many things undone. the donation thingy not yet found. wad m i gonna do. haha. heck. now my room got one electric guitar. one bass guitar. one keyboard. 3 amps. and one drum set. yay. finally. but wad a time. when i start sch i dun get the time to play. shit. oh well. lucas said without a paddle is funnny. i thought it was ok onli.. i thought shaun of the dead was nice.. haha. benny thinks its boring. haha.. one mans meat..

now watching some symphonic orchestra playing some pro piece. fascinating.

soccer was this morning. got up at 7. chris called at 7.15. favian was there already he said. so i bathed. changed. got ready. went out. raining. called benny. took a bus to his bus stop. wanted to get a cab coz it was damn late already. 7.50. waited veri long. some stupid cabs dun wanna stop. pretend nvr see. shit. some freakin ppl rush for the cab with me. shit. so took a bus. from there took another 812 to ah tong. still drizzling. went there. changed. warmed up. kicked abit. got wet. started match. sneezed. within 10 mins we were 3-0 up. before we noe it. at half time. we were i think 6-1 or something. can't rmb. den by the end of the match. we found ourselves winning 15-3. so kwa zhang rite. but realli lor. haha.out of that 3 goals conceded 2 were own goals. unpredictable and unsavable.. so.. we scored 17 goals. haha. i managed to get 1/4 goal. shared with alvin and 2 other guys. haha. ask me bout it. haha. so went to sakura after washing up at some tap. ate dry beef kway teow with a lot of chilli.. shiok. but abit too shiok. i cannot handle the chilli padi.. haha. ok la. i gtg.. my mother's pushing me to go and sleep coz there's sch tml.. duhz. its on li 11 lor. i have to get up at 7 onli..

quite satisfied with the way alvin played and the way mindice played their instrus today.. benny improving.. mayb tired from soccer. chris. got interest. kok didn't come. chiu tired. i lots my chords. neighbour came down. brought his friends. got 1 pro. realli pro. damn pro. electric guitar. play until i melt. i played drums for dem.. a bit borring kinda music for me.. but haha.. dey say i good so.. happy la. haha. got a gig in one weeks time and a week after. benny. convince me u can play on that day.. drummers interested invited to tag.. haha..

i realli hope the band works out. i mean. day and nite i think about it. i mean since i'm in one i should give my best and stuff right? at least do something during practices. ok la. today's jammin quite productive. cept tt the bass is not there. so had to sub with another guitar. shit la. where's my strap. 2 weeks liao. or more? den on the way back. zhiliang told me benny maybe cannot make it on 24th. i asked ben. he says can. i choose not to believe zhiliang. kok. come back and play if u can. 3 drummers better than 1. need to learn lots of stuff now. 11 songs. hope can make it. dun wanna spoil christmas. it IS gonna be christmas eve..

penang recharged me. i guess. more cheerful when i was there. no worries no stress no nothing. just eat and travel and sleep and watch tv the whole day. but i remembered when i was there, had this HUGE tendency to go jamming again. coz i wanted to show that we are better than those ppl playin in the hotel. and yeah, i think we are. but sometimes i feel that the onli person that realli wants to play in a band is me. show me u have that enthusiasm. it shouldn't be a chore. come on. its meant to be fun. the learning is enriching. the practices make u better. the playing is sensational. playing for a crowd, priceless. haha. come on. i noe u all have it in u. u got to let it out. enjoy. and can see alvin enjoying already. that's good. i can feel the commitment in him to learn, memorise and play. i noe u've got work. but this band is not the onli thing on my mind either. i've got other stuff to do to.

i guess i like wad i can get out of jamming. we amatuers showing wad we can do. create music. wad i realli like about it is when i just sing. sing out. its like shouting to an open sea. especially when u have to power over the rest of the instruments. it feels good just letting go. close my eyes and i feel it. who cares if i can't sing it well. i try. i listen. i listen to the other instruments. the rhythm. now, will someone pls lend me a bass guitar. the drum set's comin next week. borrowed ofcoz.

blogging. helps me recollect. think whether i'm realli over reacting over certain issues, also helps psycho-ing myself into believing certain things. why would i want to do that? i'm just human..

sometimes i envy others. happy go lucky, carefree. how do u do it? u dun ever seem to get angry.. i try not to. even when i am. but sometimes it can't be helped. u noe wad i mean. i'm just human.. mayb its the stuff he has.. able to relieve stress? i dunno..

its refreshing to see a familiar face, an old friend once in a while. to see them talk the way they do. amazing wad 2 mins can do.

amazing wad 2 mins can do. i was tired and all. a little bit frustrated. a little bit satisfied. came in to see. to help if anything. " go away " wad the heck. anything..

dodge ball. funny.

..coz i've got too much blood runnin in my veins going to waste. thanks rob.

still in penang..

stupid sp.. i purposely changed my class from 22 to 20.. den now they go change me from 20 to 21.. shit.. supposed to be same class as jeremy.. haha..well dats too bad. actually i dun realli care la.

12.. supposed to get 3 onli. got 12.

nothing much to buy. got a fake man utd replica.. realli fake. but nice material la. can use for soccer. and another shirt. names of real players. just a few. nice design.

brother bought a shirt. and 2 jeans from this shop called kawaii.. supposed to imports from korea..haha.. the sales girl quite friendly.. got to know her abit. she asked me to guess her age.. i guess 19.. she said she's 15! haha.. i asked my brother to guess after tt.. he also said around 18.. yah.. she looks matured for her age.. aniwae komtar got nothing to buy de.. nothing i want to i mean.

after tt went to prangin mall. huge mall. got dvds there. father bought the most stuff there. after tt ate again.. the same street stuff.. onli with newer inclusions.. oh yeah. that's yesterday.

this morning reali nothing to do. so free and easy until almost bored.. supposed to go jet skiing.. brother couldn't get up. so. haha. at 11 we walked to the near buy place.. ate nasi padang.. i dunno wad u call it here la. same la. not bad.. the curry everythin veri nice. den walked back after getting some sugar cane juice and goreng pisang from across the road. den walked back. was discussing whether to go to prangin to get more stuff.. but in the end decided not to. so stayed in hotel. slack. watch black hawk down on cinemax. den stupid cable got problem. so came down here.. internet room in the hotel.. to use the internet lor. later going for dinner .. seafood.. maybe can detour into some night flea market or something. can get stuff for u all..


stupid hotel. ppl shifting stuff outside this room.. so damn noisy.. stupid phone ringing behind me. wad the hell.. brother asking me not to say that.. not veri nice he says.

arghz.. i wanna go jamming. big tendency. and er. u know wad. our band is much better than the resident band here in this hotel. listened to them play few tunes. their wonderful tonight is just HORRIBLE. wrong chords wrong notes. can't sing. haiz.. at pragin yest there's this singer player the acoustic and singing at the mall.. horrible. can't strum. can't sing. i was saying to my brother maybe if we came here and started a music career we would be successful.. haha.. maybe ar.. next time. retirement plan. haha..

ok la. if anyone reads this. soccer on thurs afternoon? for john..

i'm tryin to get u all stuff.. whether i can is another thing..haha. the most u all come here watch show lor.. yeah.. i gtg liao. times up. this place isn't free as i thought it was. its RM8 per half hour. used 50 mins after my father already. yah.. he used since 3.11..

oh yah.. wil be back on tuesday afternoon.. 1PM+ reach airport in JB i think.. den takin a cab back home lor.. so will reach back round 2+.. i didn't bring my phone.. so anything on after 2 msg me.. but i'll onli read it after 2.. when i get back that is.. yeah.. first time gastric cured by itself.. nutmeg drink rulez. taste like cola without the gas. yeah. bought some concentrate back too.. k. see ya..

in penang now.. haha.. basically been eating and sleeping and sitting in this MPV since i got here.. at alot of stuff ar.. first day reach here den immediately went to eat char kway teow and ice kachang.. on the way still got eat stuff like ampong balik.. dunno how to spell la.. but is this banana kueh... singapore oso have.. but thsoe at the road sides here realli is nicer.. the peanut cake.. er. man cheng kueh also better.. crispier.. oh yeah.. that meal also ate laksa.. not bad.. realli miss the penang laksa over here.. actually i can't realli remember wad i ate in sequence.. becoz over this 2 days.. realli alot ar.. like eating trip.. and dis is better than malacca man.. cheaper. nicer. erm.. got the fried oyster oso. oh yah. yesterday's nite hokkien mee.. BEST! er.. not ur singapore dry fried hokkien mee.. is the equivalent to singapore's soup prawn mee.. onli nicer.. and include ingredients like pig intestines.. and the te kah also..wah pro.. the pig trotter in the prawn mee soup.. wah biang.. melt in the mouth lor.. steady..

dis morning.. got up went for breakfast.. i can't remember wad i ate actually.. but i know dat i had kway teow soup for lunch la.. coz got gastric yesterday nite.. so while the rest enjoyed penang laksa. i had to take dat. but nahz.. i dun care la.. the kway teow veri diff also.. so smooth and soft. hmm.. went for a tour round penang island.. visit water falls and stuff.. and still got the war museum.. we managed to have some snacks on the way back to the hotel for a rest.. went to this place near some where called the padang.. down there sells 2 things that u can't find in singapore.. i think its called che wu and de other one is the popiah.. che wu is something like indian rojak onli with a thicker sweeter nicer gravy.. fantastic.. the popiah.. nicer.. got a but of gravy.. i think is prawn stock or something.. damn shiok.. haha.. yeah.. after tt came back to hotel slept awhile.. watch cinemax den set off for dinner at 7+.. reached the destination at 8.. the BEST MEE SUA i ever eaten in the whole damn world.. the last time i had dat was 3 years ago.. same place.. standard dropped slightly.. but.. still nice la.. like sharkfin sial.. poor mans shark fins they call it.. for a party of 14 ppl.. we paid RM217.. that's reasonable man.. damn nice. so now my parents and the rest of them went to a bar.. la.. listen to music.. yah.. i gotta go liao.. see ya guys wed..

hmm.. today. mindice came. supposed to come at 8.30. but at 8.30 she msg me to bluff me she just got up. so i thought can sleep another hour or so. den at 9am received a call. she's outside my house liao! haha.. so.. she use com. after that did abit of keyboards thingy. den she want sch at around 1+. i went ZL place to jam with benny and alvin. no keys today veri weird. veri empty. i wanna effects pedal..

had runny nose today.. getting sick liao. late nites or should i say veri earli mornings nearli everyday. get up earli. so sick. got home bathed. sat on sofa watched simpsons. first time i watch simpsons until sleep. too tired liao. so manage to pull myself up to off the projector and sleep. until dinner. den dey called. went to buy present for chiu hao at causway point.the big big funny looking doll and a toilet bowl with a dancing piece of shit in it. haha. cost a total of $30 i think. den called him to come down to take. he was painting the house. no time to answer. so we sat at the interchange there eating bread from breadtalk and talking until someone decided to call him. manage to get him down. travelled to yishun. favian went back first. gave him the present. haha.. nice look on everyone's face. chris said, ur favourite.. haha. went home. bathed again. runny nose getting better. and now i'm blogging. haha.. tml moring have to set off for penang at 6.45.. taxi coming from malaysia to bring us to johor airport. air asia. den a 45 mins flight to penang. yea. food. realli miss the laksas and fried kway teow.. de road side chee cheong fun and de super nice mee sua.. couldn't forget the line dancing de previous time i was there. gosh. the horror. those horrendous line dances. 50 trying to at 15. omg. lucky for me. this time is with my family.. haha.. yeah.. hmm.. i've got nothing much else to say..


sylvia.. u were right. that is life! thanks..

well see u all when i get back on tues. soccer on thurs afternoon if any1 reads this. jamming on friday maybe.. see ya. it's past midnite already. happy birthday chiu.

today's main event was supposed to be GEM registering.. and soccer in the morning la.. stamina down.. never do warm up.. dun think will be able to have match.. true. realli not ready. fitness down.. technique down.. everything down.

everything.

singapore idol. Sylvester realli sucks like hell. can't sing. realli realli can't sing. can't project. uses throat. strains his voice. off pitch. if he wins. i won't b surprised either. singapore's taste in music. disappointing. ok la. not the WHOLe of singapore. just some of them who watch SG idol.. and voted. imagine world idol. wad a disgrace.

its depressing to .. arghz. its just depressing. depressed.

i just don't like the feeling of being kept from something..

shit.

got into entrepreneurship.. GEMS.. wanted DIY com or photography also.. but time clashes and the section was closed by the time i got there. oh well..

gastrics back.

singapore idol. taufik won. that's good. anw. the final 2. taufik and sly. this proves one thing. u dun need a good voice to sing in singapore. u just need to smile alot. and appeal to alot of people.. hahaz. oh well. its not a talent show. its a popularity competition.