today's my birthday.. dunno wadz got into me.. feeling realli blue lately.. i dunno.. just have no mood to socialise much anymore.. except maybe sometimes i feel a urge to play soccer or go cycling lor.. seems that i like going to the library to study. but with kevin , chris and benny preferably.. coz they are quiet when they should be and fun when they should be.. so its kinda better.. proabably the reason why i'm feelin so blue is becoz of these exams comings.. prelims in another 2 weeks practical for physics and chem is just next week.. bio was easy so i hope the 2 will be like that too.. oh well. actually i think there is another reason for me feeling glum.. lately alot of ppl have been saying stuff about me n mindice.. which is actually pretty irritating bcoz it gives ppl a great misunderstanding.. can't stand it..

anyway.. the school celebrated teacher's day yesterday which was a total disaster.. i mean.. it realli sucked lor.. it was the worst celebration i've seen so far in my 4 years in this pathetic school. probably bcoz its the first time the new sc are doing stuff..

oh yah. and the band realli realli sucked.. haiz.. i dun want to say it. but .. my good.. they realli sucked.. intonation was okok.. but was disrupted by some of the sec 1s sound.. so that was the first problem.. secondly is their volume.. it's like.. they are onli playing to themselves.. not projecting.. haiz..and the student conductor.. haiz.. another problem.. hope mr toh will realise that there are other potentials in the band rather the wn.. haiz.. he quite stiff and not spontaneous enuf leh..i mean.. he is standing infront of the band.. yet he never ask them to play louder.. and the stupid thing is they never test their volume at the courtyard before playing.. they should go there and test test first mahz..haiz.. dun care le.. by saying all these.. ch say i becoming like jing guang they all wanna interfier with the new batch.. but i mean.. i feel that i have something not done mahz.. nvm lorz.. just hope they call us when they need us lor.. kelvin seems veri arrogant. hope he changes soon.. if not band major will change to someone else le..oh yah.. xyz asked me wad has gotten into me.. coz i seem to be always trying to insult and humour him infront of others.. haha.. i dunno whhy also.. i just got this grudge inside me against him.. it's been in me for quite sometime already.. i dunno why.. just can't stand him anymore.. in this 4 years i've seen him. i realised he is a super kiasu.. super hypocratic.. and super psycho bitch.. haha.. wad d hell..

anyway it's my bday today.. waiting for favian and kevin to come and swim.. hope they come soon.. coz i wanna go get a phone.. new phone.. probably siemens m55 or some nokia cheap model.. my parents keep on stressing that they dun have enuf money le and blah blah blah.. which i tink is absolute nonsense as my father recently this year have made so much upgrading to the household..like the new big screen or rather no screen tv projector thingy.. with new surround sounds system and all.. somemore he sold the old bike.. not veri old.. for $200 and bought this new bike for $500++.. further more.. he got my brother a new phone! which he used forhimself and gave his old wan to him.. let's see... wad else.. oh yah.. he went to australia for a week just recently with my mum.. and bought like 6 kg of nougats home and another 4 litres worth of red wine in this big aluminium foil plastic bag and stuff.. and i was like woah lor.. it's like he onli gets wad he wants.. nothing for the rest.. but can't balme him la.. he has worked damned hard to even manage something like this.. almost the full 5c's le.. i mean.. he deserves a reward to himself every now and den rite.. just wished that my parents dun squabble every now and den about mediocre things..

anyway.. seems like everything is ok with cl le.. so quite ok.. oh yah.. realised that md is realli spoilt .. and veri veri playful.. she says she has present for me. when i said that she dun have to give today.. she sent back.. ' but i want to give today!'.. or something like that la.. anyway i'll just thank her.. although i hope that the present dun take up too muhc space.. or i'll just have to give it away to someone else..

oh well.. gtg le.. thanks everyone for giving me thier blessings.. realli grateful at least u made me a little more cheerful.. oh yah and to liangying and mindice's father.

happy birthday too!

no mood to talk.. no mood to write.. no mood to do any thing..

hope they dun disgrace our face tml... haiz..

i hate restrictions of others on me.. i rather restrict myself...

dat's all today.. those who wants to watch ju-on the prequel plz tag my board..

day didn't suck till 7.55pm..

31 july

.. few weeks left to prelims.. start studying from now.. no soccer till prelims

sylvia not bad.. can play horn quite well.. got potential.. but still lots of room for improvement.. percussion as gone down down down down without sinniah and juliet.. gotta built up le.. clarinets seems ok.. except i think i should make some arrangements.. it feels like iffah is playing solo all the time.. dunno la.. i can't be bothered with cl dere.. tml going to wani's bday party after soccer.. dunno how to go.. dunno how.. nvm.. i think i go with fadila after heats lorz..

band posts.. heard he wants ahem 2 b treasurer.. objection! ap ap ap.

can't wait for inter class soccer.. i just hope i won't be the person who destroys everything.. hope i got form on that day..dun want to disappoint anyone..

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