Ok

didn't update this blog for a long long time now..stupid exams.
i did veri badly.. probably was the worst result ever of all my 15 + years of my life.. haiz.. failed 2 main subjects.. not counting social studies..howz.. i'm just not ment to be a science student

i think.


this few days...getting closer..like the feeling..think found liao..best friend..ie..
getting further..i feel.. from the other person.. don't know why..received news today..mixed feelings..sappy..haha..think p*&(k%^& is veri flirt.. dun u think so..realised h^%!&^5 is veri suitable for photo shoots...can be model. 2 short..seems 2 me i'm not 1 of them..haiz..why?..is it me who changed? or them? i suddenly start to find some of them rather childish.. even myself..i dunno why..but seems to making alot of new friends..he closest getting further..furthest getting closer..weird..why can't be selfish..have both parties..y come and go?

now for the REAL update..
sharon tan married.. to dominic heng..
failed chem
failed physics
c for chinese
c for bio
3 for maths
A1 FOR A MATHS
so horrigible.. how? horrigible.. dunno how to face parents..they probably will try to get a tutor.. but ain't it too late for tutor? have to try my best to save time.and money..mums gettin retrenched..she volunteered... guess have to rely on eldest mei liao..( i hope i can )
ok..did a weird thing yesterday.. as i was picking up a key chain ring for e@#$@% , i was on one knee, the words just came out of my mouth..haha.. weird.. luckily.. jokingly.. she blushed.

benny didn't wanna play..can't blame him..and he was finding for someone to ensure he doesn't make the wrong decision i think..thanks for finding that person..

have a new sorta resolution.no not resloution..resolution is always something i wun do.. so it should be a must do thing..nvm.. started doing today liao.. hope can accomplish..plannned out 3 week schedule to improve sciences. was abruptly destroyed.. demolished..by the Ms tanS' and morais's remedial classes.. crap..now must reduce to 2 weeks... lesser tuime to cover 1 and half years work! die.. mei..must help me! i am almost desperate for help.. MUSt ar..

oh yah.. outof that.. i got thrid for talent time solo catagorie... congrats to u weekeong.. u deserve the number one position..
ALiff... U sucked.
ok so u were more emotional than me..so wad? doesn't give a reason for judges to ...dotz..
my song was hard to express.. wasn't thinking of that SOMEONE when singing it..
and to everyone.. i was pointing at our class up there! not that person u think i was pointing to! haha..

thanks for ur support.. actually wanted to dedicate to 2e4 2001 peeps.. but later 4e2 peeps jealous..haha..
c0uldn't make it without u..

group.. i thought benny tried his best.. not bad.. it was ok la..
COP was alrite..

jerald ur guitar skills rocks. yewtuck..u should be in the top three, shakin ur bon bons..

beginning to see the darker side of #%^@$^ , oh well.. live by my nick... MY HOPE"S A DREAM.. this time.. my hope WAS a dream..
bcoz now there isn't any hope..

better conc on studies.. Os important.. maybe this time's result can convince parents i'm not jc material.
but wun i be bringing them into an awkward pos..they always wanted me to go to university..safe route..
not much money in savings left too.. no $$ to send overseas.. wad can i do..
i'm not like my bro..dun expect that. he was brainy.. i'm more arty sporty..i think. come on.. he went to RI! i went to wad AI!
he went to aj.. with a vision to take law in u..

that's not wad i wanna be.. nto a lawyer...not a doctor.. my dreams.. my aspirtations.. did u even botehr to ask? maybe u did.. when i wasn't sure..now i'm thinking.. but the options of them are not in JC..mine is in poly..

ok sure.. ofcoz i thought of the business thingy..whether i can get a job in this society..blah blah blah.. but think about it.. if i was real good at it? if i was the best at it.. won't it be a waste.. i'll be wasting my life on something i'm not even comfortable in.. imagine..


waD if i WAS....

is my hope really a dream? or is my dream this time really just something i can hope for..

someone pls.. answer..life is short