i feel pretty sucky lately.. can't stand going to school anymore.. can't wake up in the morning to go to a place full of some sucky ppl and commitments u have to make without ur own will.. task are always there for us to accomplish and blah blah blah.. somemore everyday there's this irritatin guy who likes to debate about everything under the sun.. can't stand him.. kevin said something true.. gettin sick of yj's food le.. prawn mee chicken rice.. almost everytime eat the same thing.. the other stalls seems ee.. heck.

i've so much work left to complete.. i seem so er.. can't find the word.. i just hate going to sch.. just hate it.. just hate it.. i just wanna stay at home at use my com maybe find out NEW things .. maybe play more soccer.. maybe get fitter.. maybe go work. i haven't experienced workin life before..

and there's this thing that i feel is missing in me.. dunno wad also.. gf? soccer? band? dunno.. maybe it's just takes time to adjust back to schooling life.. well. . seriously. iT sucks bad.

had a re-match thing with weihong's team on sun.. think most ppl played pretty well.. we held on although benjamin and rodney wasn't there... its gd playing soccer .. it's good to feel the same sense of i dunno hunger? to win.. to be in the same team as the ppl that i noe and trust.. it's the nicest feelin i'vehad so far.. stupid yj.. the band sucks too.. i'm thinkin maybe i should quite and join something w less hrs like prob choir? band now is like 3 times a week and can go up till 8 pm at nite.. think it realli is draining the life out of me.. i've no free time with the band.. but i like this band.. at least i like the members not too bad.. their pretty nice.. the instructor is patient.. but i think mr toh was better.. NoW i realli miss AISS concert BANd! they rock man.. i love all my juniors! well.. most of them. some lesser some more.. haha..

realli feel like shit this few days.. if onli i can decide wad i want to do in future than i can enter poly.. less stress it seems.. and heard its much mroe fun.. but wonder what the change will be like.. haiz.. heard the results of my os comin in 19 feb or seomthing.. or isit 28 feb? dunno.. hope i can get it faster and make my decision soon.. i kinda hate jc life now.. not hearing anything gd about it from others in aj too.. feel like dropping cs.. and takin just 3 a level subs in these temporary 3 mths in yj..

school life sucks.. school life sucks.

i just wanna play soccer. play music. and not go to school.