hmm.. hope my missing of lessons won't affect me too much.. i still want to catch up.. but at home.. hate sch. . realli wanna see whether poly is better or not.. heard there is a poly open hse this sat.. maybe i shud go see see.. don't realli noe much about poly life.. but i've been hearing alot about it.. hmm.. anybody interested in goin wif me? haha..

i feel much better stayin at home too.. can do the work at my own time.. no pressure.. it's just me and my passion.. and lots of tit bits.. if i'm interested in it i'll work on it wan.. at my own time.. anyway john's not going tml i pressume.. anyway.. i feel kinda sick too..

oh yah.. cherlynn u asked me my opinion of the gers in our class.. well.. i kinda scared i offend some.. haha.. nvm la hor.. hope they forgive me..

well..

Angelina.. think she's quite a nice person to talk to.. veri approachble also ya.. Tiffany.. think she has quite a unique character.. yepz.. veri erm.. ang moh kwan wan.. so different from the girls in my sch.. haha.. Leh jun.. the 'ghost' of p24.. onli seen her once.. haha.. was expecting the mystery girl to be some chio bu.. haha.. no offense though.. charissa's gone down under le rite? nvr realli knew her.. haven't spoke to her yet.. Natasha seems veri nice too.. always smiling wan.. erm.. think my friend likes her haha. she quite chio la.. sharada erm.. seems veri gd friends with natasha... hehe.. seems nice too.. can see she isn't the dao type.. Ling fang always seems veri stressed.. she's the first girl i talked 2 on the second day i was in sch with p24.. she seems ok but vERi stressed! should ask her to relax... heard she's workin.. maybe that's why she's so tensed.. Marzuka ar.. i've been in the same class as her since sec 3! haha.. she's a nice person to talk to.. she can write pretty well i guess.. she and liza used to top our class in essay writing.. Yvonne is SO pink! she realli takes great effort to showcase her pinkish style.. everything is pink lor... she seems ok la.. chattable.. dunno noe her well enuf i guess..and ofcoz cherlynn.. always has a view on something and never fails to let it out to the world! haha.. kinda brings life to the class? i dunno.. haha.. yepz that's my view of the girls.. oh yah.. all that aside.. is vincent like erm.. has he got problems? he seems er.. how do i put it.. ar.. he kinda gives me the creeps. heh. no offense too.

my mum's askin me to go to sleep bcoz its gettin late and i'm supposed to be in sch tml.. hmm.. well. i AM goin go slp soon.. but for the sch part.. eh.. i'm not so sure.. hehe..

erm.. need a little help with the html.. could some one help? tag me..

do you like the new blog look? hehe.. cool.. it expresses how i realli feel rIGHT NOW..yeah manz.. Sschool is crap! will be back later to edit haha.. i kinda lost my phlogger link.. damn.. nvm.. later will settle that.. er.. haha.. u'all can feel free to tag on the brand new tag-board i just made! give me some new ideas on wad to do and stuff.. question me if u want.. yepz.. try not to insult PLEASE.. my days in yj are depressing enuf..

i feel pretty sucky lately.. can't stand going to school anymore.. can't wake up in the morning to go to a place full of some sucky ppl and commitments u have to make without ur own will.. task are always there for us to accomplish and blah blah blah.. somemore everyday there's this irritatin guy who likes to debate about everything under the sun.. can't stand him.. kevin said something true.. gettin sick of yj's food le.. prawn mee chicken rice.. almost everytime eat the same thing.. the other stalls seems ee.. heck.

i've so much work left to complete.. i seem so er.. can't find the word.. i just hate going to sch.. just hate it.. just hate it.. i just wanna stay at home at use my com maybe find out NEW things .. maybe play more soccer.. maybe get fitter.. maybe go work. i haven't experienced workin life before..

and there's this thing that i feel is missing in me.. dunno wad also.. gf? soccer? band? dunno.. maybe it's just takes time to adjust back to schooling life.. well. . seriously. iT sucks bad.

had a re-match thing with weihong's team on sun.. think most ppl played pretty well.. we held on although benjamin and rodney wasn't there... its gd playing soccer .. it's good to feel the same sense of i dunno hunger? to win.. to be in the same team as the ppl that i noe and trust.. it's the nicest feelin i'vehad so far.. stupid yj.. the band sucks too.. i'm thinkin maybe i should quite and join something w less hrs like prob choir? band now is like 3 times a week and can go up till 8 pm at nite.. think it realli is draining the life out of me.. i've no free time with the band.. but i like this band.. at least i like the members not too bad.. their pretty nice.. the instructor is patient.. but i think mr toh was better.. NoW i realli miss AISS concert BANd! they rock man.. i love all my juniors! well.. most of them. some lesser some more.. haha..

realli feel like shit this few days.. if onli i can decide wad i want to do in future than i can enter poly.. less stress it seems.. and heard its much mroe fun.. but wonder what the change will be like.. haiz.. heard the results of my os comin in 19 feb or seomthing.. or isit 28 feb? dunno.. hope i can get it faster and make my decision soon.. i kinda hate jc life now.. not hearing anything gd about it from others in aj too.. feel like dropping cs.. and takin just 3 a level subs in these temporary 3 mths in yj..

school life sucks.. school life sucks.

i just wanna play soccer. play music. and not go to school.

woahz.. it's been a long time since i last came on line and blogged.. yepz.. not much time left for me to do typing either .. so i'm just gonna briefly do wad i want to tell u guyz there..

ok.. i'm now studying in yj.. pon a lot of times le.. today told the sch i was sick and went to aj to crash haha.. went to their gp lectures and wasted my time there.. they were just like tellin everyone about the ezspeak thigny and stuff.. haiz.. i go to aj feel so left out.. coz all of them went thru orientation and seems closer to each other.. but in yj i feel left out as well.. nobody there seems to like soccer much.. as in the aiss ppl lahz.. only favian.. but he not so on liaoz.. dunno why also..

i think i'll be better off somewhere where ppl there i noe play more soccer than ball or badminton.. somewhere where i can talk to those ppl about anything besides soccer , studies .. etc.. that's exactly wad i am doing with those yj-SIENZ.. haiz.. can't realli click with them... maybe zaki lor.. he likes soccer as well as music.. not bad arhz.. just like me..

i just wanna get out of yjc asap! i rather go to aj manz.. got more ppl i can TALK to there.. haiz.. sad.. should have appealed there in the first place.. 2 points wasted leh!.. nvm.. hope for the best after 3 mths.. yj SUX

lalala.. sorta miss the band lah.. keep going back to their practises.. 3 times le.. shifting to the new house next week.. yepz.. supposed to have more privacy and space there.. yea. i think it wil be.. went there to see the development today.. quite satisfied with most the things.. and i realised my room is BIG... but dunno whether got place for a drum set.. think i'm gonna set my mind on buying it..

gathering yesterday.. didn't realli work out.. lucky shaun came.. wondered what would happen if he wasn't there.. everybody would just be sitting there doing nothing.. luckily we still played some games.. performance sucked real bad.. but wad the heck.. wad would u expect from amateurs tryin to put up a last minute performance...

just received a call from yj tellin me to pay $13 and stuff on friday.. yepz.. startin sch le.. hope will b able to play soccer like in secondary 2.. EVERYDAY.. fraid i won't be able to catch up witht he otehr schs if i make it to a better one after march..

it's already the 31st of january ritez.. so here's my new year resolutions .. for now : buy drum set , be a better person , find a better person , play soccer , go for music refresher course!

this year's a bad year. some parts especially. so hope the next brings me good and fresh starts in a new environment both in sch and at home.. haha.

just came back from ktv with parents and relatives.. not much x'mas mood though.. it's supposed to be x'mas eve.. oops.. no. it's already x'mas... haha. 2am le. didn't noe.. anyway.. sang xin ru dao ge.. improved. relatives said i should sing jacky's song.. suits my baritone voice.. haha.. 'baritone'.. later my father fetched bro to friends x;mas countdown. i was in the back of the car.. wishing i had that special someone to spend my x'mas with.. haha.. oh yah.. just now wen to cause way point.. bought presents for favian , mindice and brother.. spent more than $55.. still haven't buy zhihao's puzzle! not enuf money! haha. sibei tired le.. gtg.. bb. MERRY X'MAS!!

just came back from some x'mas concert thing at my brother's church... yahz.. it is a SUN concert.. Ho yeow sun's... free concert.. so i just went lorz.. today first day..first show.. didn't expect it to be so crowded.. think more thatn 5000 ppl.. so no choice.. we late comers had to watch upstairs in the 'overload room'.. yah.. there was just this big screen.. my cousin darren was sayin this is the first time he has been in a concert which has everything except the concert! haha.. the room was dark.. and everybody was singing and wavnig thier light sticks to Sun's music.. well.. to the screen that is.. we left after the show to get free ice cream the church was giving out for that nite.. then i went to geylang... to eat tau huay..

the journey past one of the alleys.. saw alot of girls standing along the street.. dyed hair.. smoking.. think they are hookers.. yepz.. disgusts me..

Played soccer yesterday morning.. those bowen guyz didn't turn upwith 11 as we thought.. instead they turned up with 5.. so we had to wait from 11 to 11.45.. for the other teams to finish one half.. then we started.. they only had 9.. omg.. so we had to 'lend' them one player.. so it was 9 on 10.. we had 9. then later benny and chris joined us.. so it became 11 on 10.. wth.. after the first half of 30 MINUTES.. they stopped the game.. we already leading 6-0.. then dunno why.. those small boys dun wanna continue le.. haha..

knn.. i just got tricked.. wasted so much of my sms and time.. and flexing of face muscles to frown and think... i hate this kinda sms thingy.. bleahz.. going to get ready for soccer le

haha.. didn't manage to pull myself out of bed to go meet them.. too bad.. furthermore kok isn't goin , so i scared i'll be super bored.. anywayz.. he made aosccer match 4 us tml.. dunno whether will ask wx to go or not.. i got my primary sch friend to cover left mid for us.. hope he performs.. it'll be the first time i play centre mid.. a little worried though.. lack of experience.. wth. it's just a game..

felt like i just wasted the day away.. i did 3 basic things , eat , sleep and watch tv. until now. sienz. seems like tml's match will not be so complete.. lots aint playin.. think the first team line up will be:
( chris , favian , john , weihong , me , rodney , shaun , johny , yewtuck , shaun's friend , keeper)
i dunno.. alvin and chiu cannot make it.. we are hoping benny can stand in.. but i guess his back is giving him problems.. somemore he says he has to go to aj.. bloody hell.how like that..

will have to see how... gtg discuss more le.. bb

they just left my house a few mintues ago.. i finally could take a bath and go to sleep.. which i'll do right after this..

bout 20 ppl turned up last nite. but i think i didn't take care of the so called 'guest' enuf.. but too bad lahz.. i did my best le.. one moment i'm going up to take the bike.. the next i'm at the other house takin margarine and tongs. then a moment later i have to run to the billiard room to sign stuff.. then some one will call me to go up stairs again to collect some things.. then some one will complain that there are not enough of somethings.. and i have to go up and get it again.. arhz.. anw.. it's prob the last time rite.. so nvm lahz..

gd luck to all of u.. jc postings will be tml... hope u get into the jc of ur choice.. i have to.. if not i die. haha. 1st choce yj lehz.

and to Sylvia, Happy Birthday.. see u guyz later..

gtg. tired.

peace out.

i've been neglecting this site manz.. so guilty.. haha. yesterday was the long awaited 13th dec.. the 4e2 bbq.. only few ppl turned up. omg.. it's like a private bbq.. so few.. i thought it was whole 4e2.. lucky didn't bring ball .. no one will play.. cycled alot lorz.. uncle cheat our money.. other she tell 4 hrs $10.. we all he say 3 hrs $10.. wah liaoz..nvm lah.. blue moon.

i loved the sea breeze... especially sitting there with everybody.. just chatting.. not a care in the world. and shouting out to sea.. relief stress.. johny wants to go there again.. i dun mind.. why not we camp there one night or cycle over nite or something.. but i wanna sit on that rock again.. it gives me a sense of freedom.. but it lacks one thing.. i think i know wad it is. haha.. it'll be perfect if there was that 'thing' there...

haha.drew a some stuff on the sand.. . oh yah. i lost my nike water bottle.. haiz. 2nd time le. eve had to go back by 10.30pm.. if not mother will scold..haha.. so we had to leave by 9.30.. initally they wanted to leave at 8.30++.. then they said 9.15.. they were quite upset when we got to the bus stop at 9.35pm on my watch. means 9.25 in real time.. aiyoz.. the bus hadn't even come yet. anyway.. i saw eve abit upset so called her mum.. tell her she'll be back late lorz. haiz.. then the rest i lazy to talk about lahz.. haha.. anw.all 4 guyz , johny ,wee wee, cs and me sent the 2 gers back home. saw the rest of the ppl that stayed at the park till late at yishun interchange after that.. haha.. i thought they wanted to watch movie.. dotz.. anw.. i gtg le. it's late. soccer tml.

peace out.

palyed soccer again today..so sienz.. raining when we started to play.. i had gastric pains.. went to mindice hse to shit.. came down after takin my medicine.. wanted to go home.. then waited half hour.. medincine took effect.. played soccer till dunno when.. coz ok le mahz..yah.. den after that went to macs with vian.. ate Mc pepper.. then go home.. slack until now.. play gb.. play msn.. nothin much.. tml they coming play pool.. hmm someone last tiem ask me to invite her to play if got play.. i 4got who le.. haha.. think i shud ask her to come if playin.. hmm.. can't remember..

so long nvr blog le..

played soccer today.. so lame.. 2v2... the rest eitehr dun wanna go or cannot make it lorz.. haiz.. just go there kick a few balls.. found a challenger to play soccer with us.. most prob next wed.. yah..sorta lookin fwd to the bbq on sat.. supposed to bk a bbq on mon for the e4ians too.. dunno .. will confirm with the rest tml or soething.. not sure yet.. hmm.. yah.. the best part of today was the night soccer.. enjoyed it quite ok... john tan hot arhz.. play like he wants to play soccer!! never seen him so hot bout it b4.. haha.. oh yah. b4 that when to watch movie.. MATRIX revo rocks.. we went in thinking it was another lousy production like reloaded.. haha.. we were wrong.. it was little like reloaded.. it was much more exciting.. much more colourful and the special effects are the BEST!! haha.. lucky didn't watch brotehr bear.. hehe.. trinity died in the end.. i dunno wad happened to neo.. probably got back to zion and remain blind forever lorz.. quite sad lahz.. john said he look like demon hunter with the red bandage on..haha.. quite cool.. the way he blow stuff up with his hands only.. its like.. woah.

yah..den played soccer at the place near chris house.. the open area.. there were social dance classes on.. and abit of martial arts boys practising at the corner.. yah.. so we played soccer.. free for all..dribling.. thenlater passing.. then passing with movement... felt like training session.. haha..then asked john to practice his crosses.. quite nice.. needs more practice.. ya.. think shaun and vian veri hot about the match.. so ami.. but a few ppl that we wanted to ask to play can't make it.. so.. gotta ask outsiders lor.. my friends.. kok friends.. wadeva la.. yah.. okok.. i've finally reached a stone hammer in gunbound.. haha.. gtg.. cya.

i didn't even step out of the house today.. feel veri lethargic.. no choic.. need to force a recovery fast.. got bbq on sunday and a bday party to go to on sat.. tml somemore wanna play soccer.. kok and alvin got mayon match.. hell.. nvm.. hope favian manage to get another few ppl.. if not 7 ppl play veri sienz arhz.. arhz.. hope tml will be fun..2 weeks nvm touch soccer ball liaoz.. holiday lehz.. can u believe it.. if i dun play soccer soon .. where will i vernt all my frustrations on?? haiz.. listening to jay chou.. recalling the past.. past times in school.. why didn't i treasure them enuf.. now it's over.. and we'll be in another school soon.. so sad.. gonna miss e4ians definitely.. but will miss our the soccer ppl most.. zhihao , kok , vian , alvin , xiong ( owes me my watch and nike shirt ) , tlg , huat , tuck ( yeah wth ) , johny , xiangyong , cx ( wtf.. ) , zhiwei , and i'm sory if i left anyone out.. yah.. gonna miss playing soccer with u all lorz.. i'll miss the 4e2 2e4ians also.. gonna miss talking bout girls with johny and singing ahem ahem songs.. and calling xiangyong from the back and see him walk over haha.. then there is the wistling to call yuwu.. and the all so familiar glare of jie en when we keep askin her for staplers.. haha.. and ofcoz the stealing of the snacks we always get from myriam and jie en and adrienne and yuwu.. haha.. gonna miss that.. yah gonna miss singing with hl too.. and making insulting remarks with chiuhao about various ppl.. haha.. all these.. i will definitely miss.. and then there is also the copying of homework day in day out.. and living in fear of mrs heng's bio lesson.. and ofcoz the funny and amusing stories of morais.. oops.. i mean MR morais.. haha.. still remembered one time i slept in mrs heng class. and it took like 3 calls from her to wake me up.. no wait. it was johny that woke me up.. and when i got up.. everyone was looking back at ome.. un4gettable ar..

didn't do much today.. got up and wanted to play soccer le. still sick though. but i really want. msged vian to confirm playing. then shaun they all say they cannot tahan liao.. didn't sleep mah they.. so ok lorz.
yah went to my music teacher's house to learn bout com music..veri veri interesting. gonna get my dad to buy a portable keyboard for me. when i finished i msged ppl coz i didn't noe where to go. johny asked me to watch movie. then on the way back to yihsun he said he watching le. haha. nvm la. he's got a good reason anyway. yah then came back lorz.. benny got his bike home. finally. and his bag too. i still haven't heard of weixiong. and my $137 watch is still with him. scared he angry then go pawn it or something. i've been having nightmares abouthim. haha.yah. wonder wadz the score between singapore and malaysia. no wait. i don't want to know unless singapore wins.. yah. watched tv. ate. coughed alot. now ok le. thinkin lorz.. go msn le. chat..

quite happy today.. everything sorta went rather ok. better than i expected. i was quite reluctant to leave the house to WATCH them play bball.. haha.. ofcoz la. but the day was good. there was a suggestion to go and watch the body exhibition at EXPO.. the one with the dead ppl.. haha.. onli dice , me and eve wanted to go.. haha.z. so ok lorz. ended up at the zhihao's house.. didn't do much there.. this is when u realise is not where u go. it's the company that is important. not bad. didn't know this group of ppl could gel. cool.. oh yah.. bought a damn nice cd.. Bon Jovi : this left feels right.. nice cd title too.. hehe. it's the acoustic version of some of their songs.. veri cool. veri nice. brings out the groove in you. haha. next is to buy red hot chilli peppers.. yeah.. hen watch 5 movies.. wishing stairs , ju-on (final) , return of the kings ( lotr 3) , brother bear and looney tunes.. maybe if i can love actually as well.. haha.. the trackers went for chalet today.. won't see them till thursday..then play soccer. still abit sick.. tml first com music lesson..

that sorta celaers thigns up a little. at least on the birhgt side it looks like a hands-off warning. haha. er...

well.. turns out that she came back online.. haha,, she told me she answered him le.. now 'm awaiting the answer. she said yes.

haiz... dman depressing arhz.. i waited the whole nite on msn just to be able to talk to her on msn.. then she went to watch tv she said.. when she came back she said she gtg.. wad the hell.. haiz.. wadz the use. she won't even come to visit this place will she?

dun pretty much of thinking today..was sick today so spent whole day at home.. sleeping , slacking and thinkin alot.. but i still can't get it straight.. why do i have to feel this way? i hate htis bloody feeling.. feeling on confusion and unsurity.. unsuirty.. is that even a word? arh.. who cares. u got my point.. dman ads keep popping up on my screen.. dman irritaitn.

it's now almost 1am.. i waited since 10 to chat with her.. luckily for me.. there are others online.. haiz.. i dunnow hy but i have this feeling.. this hope that she doesn't agree to him.. i duno why even..i think i still feel something.. i hate this.. everytime i see her or talk to her or just walk next to her i feel this small flame being rekindled.. maybe it was never even put out..

sista remindered me of the thing i said i would do o HER on grad nite.. if u'all wanna noe wand that is.. go read my previous blogs.. haha.. haiz..

i hope she'll win in the end. like they said.heehee.